I don't think my surgery failed.

I think I did. 

I'm not even sure if this is the correct forum for this so if it's not PLEASE forgive me?  If someone can direct me to the correct forum I would really appreciate it.

I had my surgery on 1/16/2003 so almost 8 years ago.  I'm back because I'm struggling and I need help and support.  I started out at 311 lbs and was able to make it down to 149 after about 18 months.  I stayed steady for quite some time after that but then my marriage ended and I met someone new.  Fell in love and had another baby.  During my pregnancy I noticed things changing, I could eat things I hadn't been able to before and more of them.  I ASSumed that things would go back to normal after I had her but they didn't.  Now, almost 5 years later, I'm back up to 230 lbs (I'm only 5'2") and I'm scared.  I CAN'T go back to the way I was before.  I simply can't.  I owe it to my children to not put them through what my brother and I went through with my mom.  She was in and out of hospitals our entire childhoods because of heart disease caused by smoking and obesity.  I lost my mom at age 26 and it was the hardest thing I've ever experienced.  If I die at the same age she was (46), my kids will only be 17, 16 & 11.  Too young to not have their mom.  I have to stop this but I've forgotten how to live with this surgery.  It sounds silly to say that but I really have, I've forgotten EVERYTHING I learned.  All my old habits have come charging back and I'm so overwhelmed. 

So, here I am.  I'm trying to take the steps I need to do in order to live.  For my kids and myself.  I hope to find the support here that I need in order to get my life back on track.  Thank you for listening!

Nita

Nita,
I am new here.  But if you really think you failed, try the rny forum, too.  You will get tons of support there.  If you think you need another procedure, try the revision forum.  You can post this same thread.  I hope the best for you and your family.   God Bless.

Do you have a support group that you could go to?  The RNY group here on line would help too.  At some groups they also have a "Back on Track" group that would help you.  At our Support Group we accept people who haven't even had their surgery with our group of surgeons, and we have programs throughout the year that would be very helpful to you.  You still have the tool, you just need to relearn all of the good habits that you had before.  You can do it!!  Good Luck, Suzy

Nita,
I see you had Dr. Smith as your surgeon. So did I. Have you been back to see what assistance their program can give you as far as a new starting point and getting back on track. I have had a lot of programs through my track and they have always been more than willing to help when able. Give them a call.
Steph

Thank you everyone.  I kinda "lost" this board and couldn't find my way bac****il today. 

I hadn't even thought of contacting my surgeon since it's been almost 8 years since I had my procedure! I will definitely give them a call although I've since moved far away from his facility, maybe there's something down here (Minneapolis/St.Paul area) that they could recommend. 

I'll look for another support group as well.  I belonged to one before my surgery and for a while afterwards but when we moved I never sought out another.  I think it's time I did. 

On a happier note, I've been really paying attention and focusing on myself  this week and was able to drop 7 lbs.  I'm going to just keep taking it a day at a time and force myself back into my good habits.

I have yet to have any WLS! But I saw your posting you said you lost a few pounds...Thats great! Your heading in the right direction. Try and look at the positive parts of what your going threw now. You don't want to get depressed thinking You failed with the RNY...You can get back on track and just retrain your mind and eating habbits. Once you do that Im sure the weight will start to come off even more....Keep trying..day by day...

Good Luck & God Bless

I really know how you feel..   I had RNY done 10/2008... got pg 5 months post OP.. had my baby girl on 12/11/2009.   Since pregnancy, I can eat, really eat and I get really hungry.  It's almost like before WLS at all.   I am eating emotionally and I have gained back... I was 282 pre-op , got down to 200 pre-preg... now at 240.    I am trying to find and fight my way back...