I have gained 80 pounds-- the surgery did not fail and I am not a failure

I had Gastric Bypass surgery October 2004. I will be 45 yrs. old in March. I am an evangelizer of the good news and a credit analyst.  I have been morbidly obese all my life. I have a lifetime of mental and physical scars from obesity. Before and after surgery I tried Weigh****chers, other methods of losing weight.  Every thing! 

I have gained back 80 of almost 300 pounds lost initially. I joined Barbara Thompson's back on track program so I can get back on track.  I never reached my goal of 200 pounds. I am considering a revision but I am not getting my hopes up on that front since revisions are hard to get approved.  My program leader already checked with my insurance and they is an exclusion in my insurance that will not approve lap band over pouch.  

I weigh 382 today and  My lowest weight after surgery was 302, and then I went up to 311, next year 321, last year 338 and this year Jan 2010 372 and to date 382.

I use to exercise on average 5 to 6 times a 45 to 75 min each session and weights at health club and at home with Leslie Sasone DVD's. I was very active and one reason for my gains over time I am less committed to my workouts. So far in January I am exercising 3 to 4 times a week 30 to 45 min sessions with walking away the pounds DVDS. I am ashamed to go back to health club since I have gained 50 pounds since the last time I was there--which was February 2009.

2009 my knee gave out and did not exercise for 2 months last year and I have not been able to get back on track since.  I am a failure I just need a readjustment and not sure how to get mind back in focus with my goals.

My biggest down fall is my addiction to and love of food. Surgery can not fix this so I have to fix my head with this problem. My plan is to start attending support groups each month and doing on-line back on track program with Barbara Thompson.  If any one has any more suggestion please HELP.  Thanks in advance for all replies.

Molly

Good to see you are taking the first step to get back on track, that is what is most important.
You will find a lot of us who have lost weight  a lot of weight and unfortunately our Mind need to catch up with out body.

I am in the group "The Beck Diet Solution", it deals with the cognitive approach to weight loss and psychological reasons to maintain the loss weight.

Come on over it may help...

Melva

Thank you so much Melva.  This is an answer to my prayers.  I posted to about 5 or more forums today and just joined 2 groups that focus on getting back on track.  The on line group I am in is very quiet.  So I figure if I join enough of these and participate this will help me to be mindful of my goals and my daily actions that sabatoge my efforts to lose weight.  I will look for book this weekend at my library.  Thanks again.

Hi Molly

I'm back in Chicago from being in Miami.  I have gained weight back too.  I just came across your post tonight since I have decided that I need to get my head back into the game!!! This place used to be such a huge part of my life.  I don't want my weight loss etc to be a 24/7 focus of my life but I know I need to refocus just like you!!!!

I just wanted to drop you a quick not saying I'm in the same boat and back here in Mokena.  Maybe we can kick each other in the butts every once in a while!!!

Good luck to you
Karen

Hi there,

Acknowledging having a food addiction is the first step to recovery.  There is a very good small group study called Life's Healing Choices that may be a good place to start.  Amazon.com has the book and workbook.  I TOO have been facing issues and am at the same point.  I need to do something fast.  Having an accountability partner is also a good thing.  I have been trying to find one myself that I can trust.  I am going to give you a link to a website that deals with various eating issues.  They have councellors who may have some suggestions.  www.crchealth.com.

I am holding your hand and telling you there is hope for all of us.

I so feel for you!  I am pretty much in the exact same boat.  Lost 125 initially, but have gained 80 back over the course of 6 years.  I too have lapsed in my exercising..., then as we get bigger, it is harder to do.  Vicious circle indeed.  Good luck to you...just wanted you to know you are not alone!  I applaud you for getting yourself back on track...hoping it inspires me:-)

You can do it!!!
((HUGS))

Hi,  It has been a few years sense I have been here I had surgery Nov 9th 2005. lost about 150 lbs and I have gained around 70 lbs back so I can realate to how you feel. I have been very depressed lately I was walking 4 to 5 miles 4 or 5 days  a week,and was told to stop when my legs were really bothering me, Pads diesease sucks I have had 3 procedures and still fighting to stop the plack build up. I know there use to be a diet thing of drinking the protein shakes and doing something else can someone help me out ?

Just grasping at straws I need to start coming here more often and pull myself back together.

Please Help.

Thanks

Twi W

Posting here has helped me.  I have lost 10 pounds so far this month.  I just started back posting here March 3rd.  I fixed up my profile.  I mordernized it and I am back in the saddle again.  Back on track program is good too by Barbara Thompson.  It is not expensive.  Staying depressed is not going to help you Twilia.  Positive attitudes will help you.  You can do it.  your sugrery did not fail and neither did you.  You can stop gaining now just like I did.  I decide I could not go up another pound.  We can do it.  

hi,i had bypass 6 years ago i live in spain have one total knee replacement and exercise is hard,i was 200 kilos got down to 105 back to 120,i need to get down to 100 kilos to get extra skin off how did you get 10 pounds off?can you help me,im on protein diet shakes does that help lose?also medication for pain knees bloats me alot thank you cristinab from spain