Diabetes returns

I am writing this on New Year's Eve to share with you all what I am too ashamed and embarassed to share with anyone in my family or friends.

I had WLS in 2007 and lost 125 pounds. Since April of this year, I've gone from 157 to 177 and this week, I finally had the nerve to test my BS and discovered that my diabetes has returned. I have fasting sugars between 140 and 160.

I don't know what I was thinking. It all just began to slip. I began eating as if I could never regain weight. I began to have one cookie, one Hershey's kiss, one small dark chocolate candy bar. Over the months, it all came back and in the fall I began very destructive behaviors like eating an entire sleeve of cookies at my desk, having candy bars in my nightstand, and all the horrible things I did before.

I don't know why I didn't think it would return. The last few times I checked my BS, they were always around 85. I guess I believe it really was a "cure". But it's only a remission.

This week, I went three days without sugar. I got my fasting BS from 164 to 147. Today is New Year's Eve and we made chocolate chip cookies and my daughter bought candy. My BS this evening is 190.

But tomorrow is New Year's Day. I have all good foods in the house. I am planning seafood for dinner.

I guess I want to know - has this happened to anyone? Has anyone gone back to low blood sugars without meds? Will losing the 20 pounds again bring me back to normal. I am so ashamed that I can't go to my dr. about this. He thinks I am the poster child for WLS.

I am cross-posting this on the failed WLS, though the surgery didn't fail. I did.

Hello,

I am writing to you, because I had the exact same thing happen to me.  I didn't have surgery, but became diabetic in 2005.  It scared me so much that I lost 104 pounds.  After just a lost of 30 pounds my blood sugar were in control without medication.  I started out with a 10.2 A1C.  So hopefully you will gets yours back in control.

I so feel your pain.  I've gained back 80 pounds and have out of control sugar too.  I don't want to face my doctor either.  My sister in law suggested going to a new doctor.  However, I am going to try to lose the weight again. 

I say we make a pack, if after 20 pounds, the sugar are not in control, we should both go see a doctor.  My email address is kohliecat@gmail. com.  I would love to keep in contact with you.  I feel so alone in this battle.

Also, you didn't fail! 

 

Hi Kohliecat!

It's a deal - it is a lonely battle, isn't it? Others don't understand how fragile this all is, the eating right and exercise. I've even had my boss argue with me about why can't I eat a piece of her fondant covered birthday cake!

I know I can do it, but I have to get back into the "head" of eating like a gastric bypass patient and not a "normal" person. I've been investigating hypnosis. I bought two self-hypnosis CDs online - one is very simple and direct; the other is expensive and has lots of "lessons". Guess which ones works best - the ten minute one!

I am taking it out tonight to begin again. My email is [email protected]. Let's enter 2010 with our health under control and our self-esteem back in place!

Hi Lori63,

I hope you are doing well.  I tried emailing you at the address you gave me, but never heard back.  So not sure if it was successfully delivered or not. 

Just wanted to say hope all is going well.

:)

Lori,  I think you are being much too hard on yourself.  We are only human and we all slip up sometimes.  You've only got 20 pounds to lose and I'm sure if you put your mind to it you will do it.  I can hear it in your words that you plan to.  I am a big believer that stress in our lives is what makes us eat poorly and to counter my stress I meditate and listen to relaxation tapes.  I find they make a big difference to me.

All the best!!  You lost 125 pounds!  You certainly did not fail!!!

MJ

Hi, I'm getting ready to celebrate 5yrs after by pass-. But I don't have anything to celebrate!-I have gained back 42 pounds, and my sugar levels are also starting to rise again- I have no one to share this stuff with- My Dr dumped my insurance 8months after my surgery, and I have been doing this all on my own- No other Dr wants to take on a "used" Pt, I feel so inadaquate, I can't even do surgery right. I have decided to try and re-train my pouch. I hope that works--thanks for letting me vent it felt really good. I wish the best for you both--good luck

Stop right now and don;t feel you are a faiure at weight loss . You have all done very well.
I will tell you this though, the weight loss does not aways control your diabete.
Run to your primary care Dr. to control your diabetes. If you don't control it now, it will control your body and you will not like the results.
Your past or present family members could of had this horrible diesease. generation ago. Stress will cause your sugars to go high, illness will cause it, foods will.  Whatever the reason go to your Dr.
Diabetes is not a joke or something to take lightly. It will damage your organs. will cause high blood pressure, heart problems.
Always ckeck your sugar level daily.

Thank you so much for your care and concern! I had diabetes for 10 yrs before I had the surgery so, unfortunately, I am well aware of the havoc it wreaks. It was the tipping factor in my decision to have the surgery.

I am feeling better this week. I am back in control, eating protein first, cutting out carbs, and using the surgery tools in the way they were meant to be used.

This is a fight for life, I realize that. I will never be fooled again that I am now a "normal" person.

And the pay off for me is that for the past 5 days, my fasting and post-prandial sugars have been between 85 - 93 mg!

What a relief!