Scared and looking forward

I have failed and I know it, I was too young and naïve when I got WLS at 23, I did well at first losing almost 100 pounds. But I didn’t lose more but I kept my weight steady not gaining but staying the same for almost two years.

Then my world crashed all around me, when I found my dad laying down on the floor dying, me being the last person to ever talk to him before he fell into a coma, and then passing six month later. It was my dad who kept me in line and never let me gain any more weight, now that I think about it.

Now it has been almost three years since he passed, and I have gained it all back now, and my heart is full of regrets on things I didn’t do. I’m 26 now and I have seen my life just passing by me as I do nothing, if I don’t do anything now, my life will be full of more regrets. I don’t want that, now I look at myself in the mirror, as I start searching again.

not sure what WLS you had done, but there must be a way that the doctor can go inside and fix it again for you,  keep your chin up, i know exactly how you feel, start asking the right questions and getting the help you need. ...never let life pass you by

Hi, I just read your message and can totally feel your pain.  Though I am much older than 26, I remember losing my dad at 20. 

I was 6 months out from my rny when my husband attempted suicide.  He was the one who kept me in line.  He lived, but since then he is not the same.  That was 6 years ago.  I lost 120 lb, but have since begun to gain it back.  I miss his support.  It is really hard when you count on someone to be there for and with you and then something happens that you lose them, either physically or emotionally.  We just have to keep remembering that WE are our best support.  These wonderful people who answer our queries are also our friends.  They have been through some of the same feelings, losses and heartbreak that we have.  It is very comforting to know that we are not the only one in the boat.

I hope things are better for you.