weight gain, need to talk

 I feel so defeated. I had lapband surgery 9/06. I lost VERY SLOWLY, 65 pounds. I was doing very well at the adjustment  that I was at but stupid me wanted a faster loss, and asked my doctor to fill me more, which he did. I guess that I was to full and in a few months started to get sick. I got pneumonia and was very sick for two months last summer. Then when I went in for my x-ray to make sure that the pneumonia was gone, it show something in my lungs. It was very scary. My brother died of lung cancer in 2005 and my sil was diagnosed of lung cancer in Feb. of 2008. So from Oct of 2008 to Feb of 09 my doctor and lung doctor was trying to find out what was wrong with me.  I had five nodules in my right lung. The biopsy came back with no cancer but ct scan still said something was in there.  My lung doctor determined that I was aspirating. Food was not going all the was into my stomach and then when I went to sleep I would choke and the food would go into my lungs. UCK. The lapband doctor removed some saline from my band. He removed 3 cc from a VG 10 cc band. So in Feb. when this was done I started to gain weight. 20 pounds to be exact. I never did get down to my ideal weight of 140 pounds.  I have almost begged my doctor to add .50 or .25 to be back at the place that I was when I lost the most weight but he won't. I do eat the right foods now but I am hungry all the time. I don't ever feel like I am full anymore. Maybe it is just a head thing and I know that I am an emotional eater and when all this happened it was, in my head, OK to eat that ice cream because I was sick. NOw I am back to eating right. I want so badly to get back at least the 161 pounds that I was late last year. I am scared half out of my mind with gaining more weight. I seem to be stabilized now but can't get back into losing. I guess that I just needed to tell someone that understands. My family is great but has no idea of the fear in me. They keep telling me that I look great. But I don't feel great. Thanks for listening Pam

hi Pam right now I'm going through the same thing I got the band 6/11/07 I lost 34 pounds the first 3 months then fell off the wagon, I had'nt seen the doc in over a year because I can't afford fills and unfills, that was my problem I wanted more so I can lose more, but then I had to much I could;nt keep anything down kept slimming, vomiting for a whole year till I finally got unfilled gained back my 32 pounds, I finally went back to the doc's 3 weeks ago for a fill I still think it was a waste of money because I still feel hungry after a full serving, but at least I'm not slimming or vomiting plus  to get my mind off of food I excercise 1 hr. everyday and I have arthritis on both knees and back, I started overs 3 months ago by cutting out bad sugars, caffiene(oh how I miss my big reds) and carbs. again, I lost 7 pounds already, and Iam so scared to ask for another fill I can't stand the feeling of the pain in my chest when food gets stuck. and you say you weigh what right now? I still can't get under 200. good luck and just find somthing to keep your mind off of food, I was told by another poster here about a book called becks diet solution look it up sounds great Im going out in the morning to look for it myself. Debbie

 I did vomit too. And had that pain in my chest. But the minute that I felt the pain, I would quit eating. That was my sign of being full and time to quit. Righ now I am fighting off carbs. It is my downfall. 
Wow,,7 pounds. That is great. 
I will check out that book that you are talking about.
Good luck, Pam

I had RNY and understand your fear. I have gained 33 back and am PETRIFIED of gaining it all back.  (Lost 140)  I am starting the five day pouch test today.  Is that something a "bander" can do?  It is to help me get off the carb binge.   Good luck

 OMG I ordered the manuel on June 15 and am waiting for its arrival. I will be starting it then. I am excited about this. I have spent the last 5 days on this computer doing research trying to get an idea of why I am eating so much and not getting full. I believe that it is carbs. So I will be starting the five day test pouch test as soon as the manuel arrives. I have already quit as much carbs as I can and I can honestly say that I am not very hungry. I hope so bad that this works for me and you too.

Good luck Suebear2
Pam

Hi there,

I had RNY 5/27/04. I lost 127 lbs and have gained back 30 lbs.  I am so scared to stand on the scale.  I don't feel full  and graze a lot. What is the five day pouch test?   Hope this test helps you. Please let me know how it works. 

Becky

OH WOW!  AM I EVER GLAD I AM NOT ALONE!!!!!!!  I HAVE GAINED BACK ABOUT 30 LBS AND AM SCARED!!

I've gained 41 lbs since I had surgery and I have totally freaked out, i don't seem to be able to control myself and i just want to cry, no support here at all.

I have gained 40 - I am scared to death.  I cannot seem to control myself no matter how bad I want to or how many times I try.  The 5 day pouch test works - but I end up going back to bad eating.  Yup, I too feel like crying.  I don't want to be that fat person again.  But I feel powerless to stop or to continue to eat right!

OMG I am not alone....
it has been a year since I my last fill.  insurance/money issues.  I have gained 27 pounds went from 305 to 250 now back to 277.  I am about to loose my mind.  I slime/vomit all the time.  After 1 bite i am heading to the bathroom to up chuck.  now i have gotten to the point where i cant keep down water. my blood pressure, thyroids, and cholesterol levels are all off the chart.
hopefully help is on the way.  insurance just kicked in today so i can get into the doctors office next Tuesday.
maybe I will be able to get back on track.  I had gained so much energy and self respect, I felt good and looked better than I had in years.  I want that feeling back. I hear you and I understand what you are going thru, believe me you are not along.  we just need to pick ourselves up dust off and get back on track.  THAT SOUNDED SO EASY DIDN'T IT

GOOD LUCK