Negative mental effects after dramatic weightloss?

These post almost made me cry but I'm at work. People always come up to me congratulating me on my weight loss and how good I look and men suddenly realize im a human. Everyone sais it must be great to get recognised for my work but the only thing I feel is hurt for that big girl I was. I have always been overweight and from an early age saw how unfairly I was treated. To this day I fear of having a baby girl because I'd resent her for being loved while I was ignored. All I ever wanted was to be treated fairly AS the person I was them weight and all. If there was a way I could be at healthy weight at home and put on a fat suit outside I would just because I dont want to be approached by people who wouldn't look at me when I was fat. People don't understand that when ur big its not just that guys aren't attracted to you  or other women judge you its  that the majority of people don't even consider you human. People dont want to be your friend, sit next to you on the bus, one little boy didn't want me to touch his puppy. Im having alot of trouble getting ove the resentment and looking past how people treated me in the past but still an open wound. I try to explain to my therapist but I dont think she understands how deep it goes. Even overweight people who grew up a normal weight dont understand. Sigh. Just alot of pain there.