Feeling defeated

I appreciate everyone's advice/support.  It's nice to come back to this site and still be able to count on fellow DSer's for help!!.  I am going to continue to plug away at this.  I just had a certain number in mind that I wanted to reach by my 40th B-day.  I stressed out way too much over a number.  My hubby reminded how far I have come and to just enjoy life and the changes I have made.  I think I'm going to throw away the scale...to easy to become number obsessed.