Murphy's Law...

Has been the constant rule of my life. My surgery date is in 4 weeks, so I'm starting to stress about it. Stressing to the point of having nightmares. I'm afraid that anything bad that could possibly happen, will. I'm going to Mexico alone to have my surgery, so there are some special "worst case scenario" possibilities. I'm confident in the ability of my surgeon (Dr. Ramos Kelly), but I'm still worried. My first and most constant fret is about being a liteweight. I am constantly comparing myself to the before pictures that I see to try and reassure myself that I won't be turned down for my DS once they see me. I'm a little freaked out about the pre op diet, because I fear that I might lose weight and kabosh my chances. That sounds ridiculous since the ultimate goal is to lose weight, but that's where I am.

My current stats are:

Height: 5'8.5"

Weight: 259.5

BMI: 38.9

I have comorbidities, so technically I "qualify". I just don't want to press my luck with the weight.

Saying not to fret will not do any good, because you still will some, it is only natural.  When I read your post, I had to reply although you may not have ever seen any post from me or know of me...I admit, I do not get on here as often as I once did or should.  But, your story sounded so much like mine.  I had my surgery in Phoenix AZ, I am from Kentucky.  I went alone also, although I did find a buddy on here that agreed to be my AZ buddy if I needed one.  I worried and fretted like you too all the days and nights before flying out there alone.  I was a liteweight too and had the same worries, but don't fear, they are going to go by the weight you clocked in at prior to the fast you are doing now.  I think it is only natural to worry some about what all the outcomes are going to be... I do remember trying to get everything or most all in my life in order, telling my son little things before I left, I was so afraid of leaving him alone in life, when I awoke after surgery and found I had made it through, I prayed and thanked God!  This is all normal, you are on track, keep your head down and keep on trudging towards the finish line, you are going to be fine and all will be worth it! 

Carolyn