Gained 4 - Count Em - 4 Pounds

I get weighed here four times a week.  Saturday I weighed 122 pounds.  I have eaten everything on the menu plan I was given since Friday.  Today I weigh 126.  That's a four pound gain in one day.  I am just sick over this.

I don't dare go back to starving/purging because I'll have to leave here, if I do.  I need to be here.

My whole day is going to be ruined now.  We have a full day planned here and I'm going to hate every minute of it.  It's going to take all my willpower to eat what I should today.

The meal plan I was given says 1.000 calories a day, but so far it's falling into the 1,300 range due to all the stuff on the plan.  They are making me eat grains and fruit all day.  I actually have to eat six servings of fruit a day.  Not to mention all the grains they are asking me to eat.

I'm just beside myself over this.  I want to go to bed and pull the covers over my head and stay there all day.  With not eating, of course. 

OMG!!!  I don't know what to do here.  I can't keep gaining like this.  I never go to my surgeon's goal nor my personal goal.  I had 22 pounds to lose and now it's 26.

HELP!

Kelly

Dang, I'm sorry, Kelly. They've got you on the wrong diet and you know it but they're the ones with the damn power over your situation. Ugh!!! Can you try to suggest to them to let you try a low carb high protein diet instead....prove to them their way is not working for you?

--gina

What would happen if you told them you seem to be gluten sensitive and your stomach stays upset? Do you think they would modify your diet?

I sympathize about the incorrect diet, but other than that, this is the disease talking. Unless you are really short, like 4 foot 6 or something, being 126 lbs and "needing" to lose 26 lbs is unhealthy thinking.
     I actually checked this with a bmi calculator. 4 foot 6 inches tall with a weight of 100 lbs, which seems to be your "goal", would put you at a bmi of 24.  Are you really that short? If not, you are aiming for a very unhealthy weight, and that is part of your eating disorder. You perceive yourself to be fat when you aren't. 
     Also, you know, when you think about this intelligently, that a 4 lb weight gain in one day isn't a real 4 lb weight gain. All of us have some variation in our weight day to day. That's what you are experiencing.

     So instead of beating yourself up over this, discuss your feelings and perceptions with the therapy staff and use this as an opportunity to work on your disease. That's what you're there for, right?? 

Larra
    

seriously, hope you can get them to change your diet.  most  importantly, wishing you much success and sending you hugs.
hang in there.  stay strong