cant stop eating

Dear Rosie, First of all, let me say my heart is breaking for you...Please do not beat yourself up anymore. With that said, I'm gonna to add my two cents even though you haven't asked for it. Having been in therapy most of my life, I now know that we all have our own answers. They're not magic, they're just the truth. You must be willing to look within and see "what's eating you." That's why you're eating. There is no magic bullet. Only the truth. For me, it was getting into 12 step programs when I was 33. All I heard in those rooms, was "the truth shall set you free." I know that comes from the bible, but in my house that was non existent! So this was news to me. I finally was able, with the help of my sponsor, to release and let go of some of the shame I was feeling for having been sexually molested when I was eleven. I had carried that with an additional 100 pounds all that while and still was continually eating. And as broke as I've been at times, I NEVER allowed that to stop me from being in therapy. I sought out sliding scale places, and places that were training therapists and I never took NO for an answer. Rosie, you must be willing to look within. You've already "lived" through whatever it is/was that's torturing you...and only you know that particular truth. So, please be gentle, but go forward. This was a big step for you, as it was for all of us to seek out weight loss surgery. It is only a tool. Now it is up to you to pick up the tool box and use it. May God bless you and keep you... Warmest regards, Fern B. P.S. Feel free to email me and maybe we can talk by phone.