cant stop eating

ok as I sit here typing tears are coming down.I cant stop! I eat and eat and eat.Even tho im stuffed I continue to eat.I dont have the dumping syndrome problem so I can almost eat anything I want. I dont work so im home all day,I go to bed at 2 in the morning and then I wake up thinking about what Im going to eat for the day. I always say that Im going to do better and then I eat again. Right now Im so stuff that I want to throw up.Im out control. I waited 3 long years to get this operation and thought that it would do the trick but I ddnt realize that its all on me. Please dont write and scoled me because I know that im doing wrong, but do give me advice.I dont know what else to do.I have been losing very slow and I know why,so I am very fusterated.I want to thank you in advance.I do take my protein drink which I love. I am so discourage.HELP God Bless You Rosie

((((((hugs))))))) No one can scold us more than we scold ourselves, so I wont even go there. Its not necessary or a good thing. I seen in your profile that you had a dog you were walking. Do you still have it? When you feel like eating, grab the leash instead. Or on a more personal note, do you think maybe you could see a dr, obviously this is not "true hunger" making you eat. There must be something, maybe buried deep, that is keeping you eating. I went through a point,(not saying this is you, just me) that I was afraid of losing because I didnt want the attention. Especially from men. Being fat had been a nice safety net even though Im married it was a scary thing. I have read where others feel the same way too. Maybe this is what is keeping you eating. What ever it is you need to unburden yourself and find out because its more that just being hungry. Make an appt for a psych consult, did you have to have one prior to surgery? Talk to them again if you can. Talk to your PCP. Just dont let it go too long to undo all the work you have already done. You deserve more you will get there, look at this as just a speed bump that has to be gotten over, but makes you slow down for a bit. Good luck and hope it all works out for you.

Hi Nancy, I dont have any medical ins.any longer so I cant see my Dr. I did have to see a psych.prior to my surgery and I stopped that because It was getting to deep for me. THis is the second time I do this(stop seeing a therapist) because they get down to the core of my problem and it scares me. I dont mind the attention at all. I know that its not real hunger and that's whats killing me. I am going to start walking again. I dont have the dog anymore but my aunt does and I will go over to walk her every chance i get. Thank you for your support. I know eventually that I will need to see a psych.to solve this problem. But I'm scared. God Bless You Rosie

Oh! and thanks for the hugs.Right back at ya! HUGS & 's Rosie

Do you eat only when your sitting around the house? I know I like to eat out of boredom and that's why I keep myself a job. I have a very active job being on my feet all day and I'm moving all day so that's wonderful but I'll be going nights and that scares me. Donna 338/159

YES!!!!!! I wrote this awhile back and so I'm a little better. My husband and I joined 24hour fitness and before that my kids and I would go jogging at night. I still eat the wrong foods,I'm lying to myself and saying that I will start eating healthier after I lose the weight,but I know that it's just an excuse. I am doing better RIGHT now. I hope and pray that I will continue to do good. I'm not working right now due to carpul tunnel. I had surgery and am awaiting for my left hand to get done. Then I will continue to go to therapy. So I am off for awhile. But I do notice that when I'm not home I do ALOT better,also the night time is when I wanted to eat the most. I would stay up until 2am either on the computer or watching t.v. so I was bored. I no longer stay up past 11pm and I dont get on the computer as much so that helps. Donna thank you for replying. I hope you do well with working at nights. Are you a nurse? Is that why you are going nights? God Bless You, Rosie

I'm glad your doing better I went to school to be a certified nurses assistant but never got my certification for it. I'm now working as Personal care aid in an assistant living home. As long as I keep moving I'm happy and I worked the night shift last night and did well. It's keeping busy is the secret Donna 338/159

That is so true. I wish you the best. How much have you lost? And was it hard eating healthy afterwards? Rosie

I've not had surgery yet but I can relate! I remember one time after finishing the Optifast program that I stood in the pantry eating. My mind was calling out "Don't do that..you've worked so hard... STOP" but I shut it up with more food. I still don't know why I did that but I gained the 85 pounds I'd lost faster than I lost them. I still go through "hormonal" times when I just want to EAT. I want to FEEL full. I just never feel full though. That trigger is long gone. I feel discomfort..and stuffed...but never "full" before then. I agree with one of the posters who mentioned the attention. Fat is a security and we (read "I") have to get to the bottom of the WHY we do this. I will continue to attend counseling for this. Sometimes, I think it is making the commitment and DOING it. Like taking that first step on a walk is the hardest. (Actually getting my fat as* out of the chair is the hardest part!) I know that unless I am on some strict program, I am going to eat what I darned well please - and I can't do that. I've got to say NO. I found out that some of my "normal" sized friends say no... Good luck to you....but you are right in something you stated in your first post. It is all up to you - no one can "make" you do it. My journey will be up to me and I am trying to start eating smart now. Blessings Dianne from FL

Hi Dianne, This journey is hard for me. I thought that this surgery was going to fix everything. My friend had surgery about 4yrs ago,and she kept on shedding weight. I never heard her complain about anything. This is one of the reasons I decided to have surgery too!(easy) Well I sure learned my lesson. Don't get me wrong,I praise God for this procedure and I thank him for letting me lose the 65lbs,Thats another thing. I have ONLY lost 65lbs and in 9months. I should have lost more,but because of my eating I am a slow loser. My friend ate the wrong foods and she went down to 150,she was 350 pre-op,and so I figure I can too. I know I'm not suppose to. But Dianne,I am trying my darnest to eat healthy. I guess if I just let myself and eat and eat and not get back up then I am DOOMED!How are you going with the process? Hugs & 's Rosie