I have to have a reversal

I have had two gbs.  After the first one in 2001 my son died while I was post op and I don't know if that's why but after I lost 80 lbs I gained it all back.  My top weight was 281 after the first one.  I  gained back to 279 and in 2005 had a revision by a better surgeon.  I have had sucess with the revision and am down to a fairly heathy weight now of about 145.   The problem is I look much thinner because I have lost fat and muscle mass and am pretty much skin and bone.  I don't look heathy.  Between the two surgeries I deveoped what has become a chronic problem with espophageal spasms which has caused chronic vomiting which has resulted in protein calorie malnutrition.  It was diagnosed this year by an endocrinologist but he said it is a gastroenterologist who treats it.  But the truth is nobody treats it.  They just tell you to eat a lot and take your protein shakes.  There are numerous symtoms of malnutrion.  They include weakness, disorieintation, low blood pressure,  etc.  I have tried to reverse it but have had no success now my gb surgeon says we have no choice but to reverse the gb.  I have many concerns about this.    This will be the third time I've had surgery and that alone is scary wondering how many times can I get cut on and survive.  From the research I've done about reversals I have learned that the bypassed intestine is reattached to the native stomach (the part of your stomach that you don't use because you use a pouch).  Well in my first sugery my doc left in a native stomach but after my second one my new surgeon told me he removed my native stomach so it no longer existed.  This is the same surgeon who says he wants to do a reversal.  With all the surgeries he does he obviously doesn't remember that he told me he took out my native stomach.  So I don't see how a reversal is even possible.  Then if it is possible and he does reverse it I have done research where people tell you that their bodies were so malnurished that when they had the reversal every bite they consumed converted to fat and they rapidly became obese again.  My doc did tell me I'll probably gain my weight back.  If it's about maintaining that's one thing but being programmed to get fat because your body thinks it's starving is something else entirely.  I can't compete with that.  I'm goin in the hospital on Monday morning to be fed nutrients via iv until I am healthy enough to have the reversal.  The acutal surgery is my biggest concern.  I don't want him to cut me open not knowing exactly what he's gonna do with my intestines and my pouch.   I'm afraid I may not wake up and I also think there must be another answer.  Anybody??????

IM almost a yr and haof out and i weigh 108lbs at 5 ft 4 and i cant eat at all,i am now full liquids and i drink boost and weight gainer shakes all day, I have had 8 adhesions blockages and hernias,i also have those spasms ,im also so tired i dont no what my future will be like at this rate,i wanted to be healthy,i didnt want to look like death warn over...............you are in my prayers.                                                                              Vickie

Thanks Vickie.  Ilike the pic that peels off to the new you/!!   I'm sorry you can't eat.  I can't eat then vomit but now in the hospital on the tpn I can eat and feel better.  found a good doctor who specializes in complications.. I wrote about him here on the complications formum.  MY doc is pretty upset with me right now.  He only found out today that I have been smoking and I've never seen him so mad.  He says when smoke gets in your pouch you ger all kinds of clompications.  He says he feels used and deceived.  I feel terrinle and ashamed.  I have to vow to never smoke again and not be lying about it. or he won't be my doctor anymore.  He did say that perhaps I won't have to have the reversal.  He said we would have to see how it goes but that gives me hope that I may not have to have the reversal now.

It's LeAnn again.  I was in the hospital for about a week  on the bariatrric ward.  Dr Warnock is the best doctor  ever!!!  I was so afraid of having the reversal.  I was on a picc line with a tpn bag all week.  He was really mad at me the first day and seriously chewed me out because i have been lying to him for a couple of years about smoking.  he was outraged!!!  He told me that  if I don't follow his orders he can't help me and he will discharge me as a patient.    But he is also very kind and forgiving and patient!!!  While in the hospital I was able to keep food down and he let me eat as much as I wanted.  He explained the reversal procedure.  Since my native stomach was removed during my revison all that is left is a stump.   That makes the reversal very dangerous and should only be considered as a last resort.   So yesterday on Saturday he and I discussed the reversal.  He said he would either release me today or on Monday he would go ahead and reverse it.  I expressed my strong opposition  and he respected that.  I was so afraid he was going to not even care about how I felt about it and try to manipulate me into it.  I was so wrong that I am ashamed.   Dr Warnock is one of the very best gb surgeons in the country 24 of the  top 25  (google it--it's true) and I should have trusted him more.    Well he released me and has given me one last chance to thrive without out the reversal.  I am going to try.  I don't  know what will happen and I think Dr Warnock isn't so sure himself.  I may be losing my job which means no insurance so I told him if that happens it will be a while before i can  come back.  He told me that as long as i follow his orders  he will treat me totally for free until I get insurance again.   Can you believe that!!!  I am so blessed to have Dr Warnock.