was it worth it?

I mean how can i asses 2 years in and out of the hospital( mostly in) vs. living thinner??? I mean, I dont want to write out my story, i cant even face it. I can not compare it to some of these but, just putting it together in my head makes me so upset is anyone ~30 and had this with some problems?

Yes, you are not alone, its way more common than people wish to think it is.

I go back and forth on this issue quite a bit. The answer is yes and no. I feel more connected with my family, I feel more connected with god and my purpose. I feel more healthy and feel encouraged by others stories who feel it truly IS worth it. In the same note... I feel very guitly and selfish that I put everyone through this and that god took other good people instead of me. I also feel scared and get angry that I am still weak and jealous that others had it so easy and are not missing any time (I was in a coma for 5 weeks) I will never get that time back. I also sometimes feel stupid that I didn't see the signs that maybe I shouldn't have done it. (Read my profile it is kind of weird) However, I feel blessed I am alive and here to say these things. Even, though I feel guilt I do feel healthier being thinner. I also have found that even though I lost that time and it was so hard, that sometimes really beautiful things can happen when you have no control. (Probably the hardest lesson I have had to learn) I think the moral of the story here, is that I would rather "FEEL" that not. To me it not just about being thin (it really never was) it is about being healthy. I have to believe that it WAS worth it! Amy