Prayer wanted having a hard time with attitude

I was sick for 2 days and that was hard. Yesterday was great I felt like I had the wind by the tail. But today is another low energy day. I am having trouble with negative food thoughts. And although I have lost 50 lbs in 10 wks today I still have 151 to go, and sometimes that is intimidating to me. I am not concerned I will eat something I shouldn't but I do not want to feel like a WEIRDO, WEAKLING for having these thoughts. I know it took me years to get to this point, and it may take quite awhile for my head to heal along with my body. Today I struggled deciding how to find the balance between going out to lunch and selecting what I know I can have and taking a box home, and feeling I need to stop thinking of eating as a social event. I chose to not go, and just eat my Fat free Motzerella and reduced fat wheat thins like I do many days. But I was still a little disappointed. The tv ads for foods were troubling today and that is unusual for me. I try to remember like Abraham, the Lord is taking me into an unknown land on a journey of unknown length--- but I WILL ARRIVE AT THE PROMISED LAND HE HAS WAITING FOR ME. I love the song THE VOICE OF TRUTH DON'T YOU? I know youi understand me and that helps some.

Pam, I've just said a prayer for you that you will have a great day and instictively want the right foods. I can relate to your challenges so much. I'm currently doing a study on Abraham and it's a great example. We have to follow Him and he provides all that we need and blesses us over and over. Have a blessed day! ~Wanda

Thanks for the prayer and words Wanda

Pam, No one ever said this road would be easy. The one thing that we can rejoice in is knowing that we are a child of the Lord's. In times like this when you are struggling and no one seems to understand, God is there. He will be your shoulder to cry on, your ear to vent on, and your encourager to help you continue on. Rather than look at the big picture of what you still need to loose, make small goals for yourself. For me, I made a goal last Monday that I wanted to loose 5 more pounds by this Tuesday, I already lost 3. That is a reasonable goal. If I said I want to loose all 120 pounds by fall, sure it is possible, but it is unreasonable. I will have to wait and wait for the goal to be reached. Maybe you could say, when I fit into one size smaller, I'm going to by a pair of pants. You could achieve that in a week or two. We are rejoicing with you in your weight loss and continuing success. Never be intimidated to come and vent on us, not only are we your brothers and sisters in WLS, we are your brothers and sisters in faith. God bless, Dawn

I'm so sorry you are struggling right now. This is a life changing adjustment and it takes time. Like anything new, initially I felt like "I can do this" and the weight falling off reinforced my motivation...and then the weight loss began to slow and my appetite returned and I found myself feeling angry that I could not eat whatever I wanted in the quantities that I wanted. I have to keep reminding myself that my body has been permanently altered and there is no turning back. I pray for God to give you strength and comfort and to literally fill you with His Holy Spirit to fulfill your every need and craving!