Support and in need of an Angle

Hi all, I don't know if this is proper etiquette,but I am in real need of friends, support and an Angle who will go though this with me and pray with me and for me. I don't know how others get angels or anyting like that. I am so new to this. I just thought I would ask. Tomorrow is my 38th birthday and I feel depressed. I don't know why, but I do. I go Tuesday night to see my PC to get on my 6 month doc. diet and Thurs night I got for my overnight sleep apnea test. My consult with my surgeon is coming up soon. Feb 16th and I found out that my insurance fully covers the surgery I have a copay of a 1000 and I have to find out how much up front I have to pay. Anyway, I think I am mostly depressed, because my mom and dad are very distance unloving people and I know they forgot my birthday this year. And though it should not bother me, it breaks my heart, truly. I have such an increadilble family within my husbands family. God has truly given to me what I never had my entire life within this family, but it still hurts. Anyway, enough of that. I am so glad you are here, I read alot of posts and I have been reading all the post about Randall and his wife and my heart is so very broken. I was widowed 7 years ago very suddenly and know the increadible pain that comes from it. My heart is with Him and and his kids. Love to all, in Christ, Trish

Hi Trish, Happy Birthday tomorrow! You are loved. May God's presence be so real to you tomorrow that you can almost feel him hugging you. I found this on another post & loved it. I thought it might give you comfort: A Beautiful Person If God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it. If He had a wallet, your photo would be in it. He sends you flowers every spring. He sends you a sunrise every morning. Whenever you want to talk, He listens. He can live anywhere in the universe, but He chose your heart. Face it friend, He is crazy about you! God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way. Love, Darlene

Trish, Hello!! and Happy Birthday to you tomorrow!! 38?? Wow, I never would have thought that someday that would sound so young!! (I will turn 57 in May!) Doesn't seem possible how quickly the years fly by. But every year my faithful Lord walks me thru has given me aneven greater appreciation of his love for me!! It is sooo hurtful when our own flesh and blood family doesn't seem to be able to meet our emotional needs, and sometimes it seems they don't even try. Been there too, Trish. Most of us have. There are very few families without heartache and tragedy, and sadly most of it could be avoided with God's help. I have learned to rely on my "In Christ family", who when you think of it literally are more accurately our "blood" relations. We were reborn into the family of God THROUGH the blood of Christ. And in truth, those ties have always been sweeter and more faithful and truely more sincerely loving than my own unsaved family!! It sometimes does not release the longing though for those bonds, and we really need to pray through the pain. As God has matured me, all this earthly "stuff" just doesn't mean as much in the light of eternity!! But, like I said, when we wander down that old path of hurt and rejection, it really stinks!! AND, we All do it!! You will find some precious brothers and sisters in the Lord here, and who will be ready and willing to pray and be friends. The WLS seems to have brought us together, but the Love holds us here. I am so thankful for this forum. I had my surgery on the 16th of this month, and am 7 days out now, and all is well. Having such a great learning and fellowship experience here has been invaluable. I did read your profile, and relate to wondering if others are needing the surgery more. I am 5'5'' tall, and my weigh in on surgery day was (I think) 245. It was in kg, and my math isn't great. I have bounced between225 and 250 for years, and could NOT get any lower. So my bmi was bouncing from 39-41, I had sleep apnea, hi BP, hi Chol., pre-diabetic, and have hip dysplasia in both hips. Knees have been painful for the last year, too. Back and hip pain were debilitating. I understand that you don't have to be 200lbs overweight to be just as miserable and in trouble. Just don't go there to beat yourself up. There will always be those critics, but I would say I've never seen one here! Pain and emotional issues are very real. " Dear Lord, help this dear sister to let her eyes rest solely on you, seeking only Your sweet approval, and heal the emotional pain she is experiencing right now. May it bother her less and less each time the tempter tries to use this hurt against her. Because 'greater is he that is in me than he that is in the world'. Put your loving arm around her, and bless her greatly with the love of her dear husband, and loving children. Amen and praise you Lord!!" Let us know how your special day goes, and write to us again soon regarding your WLS journey. Love in Christ, Kathy B.

Hi Tish, I am not local and I am not sure if you should have an angel close by or what. But I will commit to praying with you and would love to share your journey. My surgery is in 3 days! Ihave found so much love here on this forum and am blown away by the caring support of this website. You came to the right place to share your vulnerability. You have found some new sisters!! I am sad for you that you are feeling the loss of what you would like for your earthly family to be. I am praying that you will feel precious to our Heavenly Father. His heart is every straining toward you. His ear is bent to hear your whisper. You are His treasure. Remember how much He loves you and wants to bless you with His joy and presence. I have also struggled with a little depression during my 6 month waiting time. I think that it is VERY common. If you read the profiles, many of us are up, down, up down. One minute filled with hope for the future and other times dispare for the moment. Read my profile. I promise I am not crazy! The emotional roller coaster of this waiting thing make us feel a little crazy. Trust God with the process. I can tell you that I have been so blessed by watching His hand in this. I have felt His blessing and have seen His favor through out the last 7 months. I pray for your birthday to be blessed with the knowledge of His love, for your children and husband to find ways to make you feel special. I am looking forward to sharing our journey together. God has some plan here, of that I am certain. Love to you, J.Marie

Trish, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! Georgina

Happy Birthday Personal Note: My son-in-law grew up in a similar situation with his family. Both parents were alcoholics, they were emotionally distant to all their children. His sisters have each had two failed marriages. The difference in my son-in-law is that he gave his life to Christ as a teenager and God directed him to our family by marrying our daughter....The transition has not always been easy because I think he sees the family that he didn't have growing up. However, this has made him thus far, a terrific father to my 2 year old grandson. Just two weeks ago his father (at age 54) died and I know that despite the past, he hurts deeply from the loss. Trish, I will be praying for you. luvitsunnyv