Searching for understanding/answers????

Hi Everyone, You may remember a post that I "cross posted" last week, from Christal. She was upset that I did that. I honestly thought I was helping her to get some answers to her questions. As soon as I found out she was upset by what I had done, I sent her an apology. Christal sent this back to me and said I could post it in the hopes of us being able to understand how she feel's. I did E-mail her to make sure that's what she wanted. Christal assured me that Yes she wanted me to post this on the Christianity board, because maybe we could understand a bit more how she feels. ...GO YE UNTO ALL THE WORLD AND TEACH THE GOSPEL... God bless you all, Annette HEY ITS OK ,IM OVER IT NOW IT REALLY MADE ME MAD THERE FOR A MINUTE CAUSE I DIDNT WANT EVERYONE TO SEE IT THATS WHY I PUT IT THERE ,I SHOULDNT HAVE POSTED THAT AT ALL, BUT I FIGURED I WOULD BEFORE MY SURGERY TO SEE IF MAYBY I COULD PERHAPS START TO TRULY BELIEVE BEFORE THEN ,CAUSE IT WOULD MAKE ME FEEL BETER TO BELEIVE THERE WAS SOMETHING ELES THAT WOULD HELP KEEP ME ALIVE BESIDES THE DOC, AND I HAVE GOTTEN LOTS OF RESPONCE AND IM AM DOING MY "RESEARCH ON IT" BUT THEY ARE HELPFULL ,BUT I DIDNT WANT EVRYONE TO KNOW THAT I FELT THAT WAY BECAUSE IM NOT PROUD OF IT.I DO NOT WANT TO BE THOUGHT OF BADLY BECAUSE I FEEL THAT WAY, BUT I HAVE FROM THIS FOUND OUT A "WORD "THAT PEOPLE WOULD SAY I AM AGNOSTIC, I GUESS I DONT NOT BELEIVE BUT I DONT BELIEVE I WOULD LIKE TO BELIEVE BUT I JUST CANT PUT ALL MY TRUST IN SOMETHING THAT I DONT KNOW IS THERE IT IS HARD TO EXPLAIN I GUESS I HAVE TRUST ISSUES,I HAVE TRIED BEFORE BUT I JUST CANT DO IT RIGHT NOW BUT IM NOT SAYING THAT IT WONT HAPPEN,BUT I THINK I AM HAPPIER NOW THAN I HAVE BEEN IN A WHILE NOW ,WHEN I WAS A "BELEIVER" I WAS ALWAYS SAD BECAUSE I WAS ALWAYS AFFRAID IN EVERYTHING I DONE I WAS GONNA GO TO HELL FOR IT AND THEN I WAS SAD BECAUSE THE PEOPLE I LOVE WOULD NOT GO WITH ME(TO HEAVEN) BUT I DO NOT KNOW ALL THE RULES TO IT ,BUT ALL THE RESPONCE HAS BEEN HELPFULL ,AND YES I FORGIVE U ,I SHOULD NOT HAVE GOTTEN THAT MAD ABOUT IT,AND EMBARRASED, AND THANK YOU FOR APPOLIGIZING IT REALLY CHANGED THE WAY I FEE ABOUT YOU ,AND SINCE THEY HAVE ALL READ MY FIRST POST ,IF U WANT TO U CAN POST THIS ,SO MAYBY THEY WILL SORTA UNDERSTAND ME MORE ON HOW I FEEL , THANKS CHRISTAL

God Bless you Annette - you reached out in a very tangible way. I know somehow, someway that God is going to use this for His glory. I will be praying for Christal - she is so confused and my heart goes out to her. I know that there have been times of a crisis of faith in my life so it is for that reason I know Christal is reaching out but at the same time in denial. Sometimes God wants us to feel sad afterall it has been said that difficult times sometimes turn out to be our greatest blessings. I will continue to pray. Love ya! God Bless, Lynda Phil. 4:8

Annette~ You are such a dear heart. I know you meant well. You are a blessing to all of us. Christal~ I you read this, I want you to know that God loves you, and even when you don't want Him in your life ~ He still keeps loving you. I am glad you had a chance to explain what you are feeling. I pray that your surgery will go smoothly and that all will be well with you. My greatest prayer is that one day you will give your heart back to God. Blessings~ Becky

Adding to what Becky said~ Jer 1:5 "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, Before you were born I sanctified you;..." He loved us and knew us BEFORE we were conceived. You have to remember, God hates the sin; not the sinner. Love, Dawn

The "seed" has been planted. As a messenger of God and fulfilling Christ's mission that is all we are asked to do. Expect the Holy Spirit to do His work, now. At least Cristal seems to have an open mind.....let's just pray her heart and eyes are opened as well. Blessings, luvitsunnyv

Hi Annette. I'm sure the Lord is saying, "Well done, my good and faithful servant." God bless you for your efforts. I will continue to lift you up concerning your needs, and I will also continue to lift up Christal. Peg