God's will??

Becky, I had those same feelings and it's ok. Satan wants to steal our joy away from us and obesity is such a big open door for him. Regardless of how we got to be 300 pounds, we are beautiful creations in God's eyes and I have to believe that He wants me to think I'm beautiful too. I have already shared my WLS journey with strangers...and I haven't even had the surgery yet. I found it easier for people to relate to me. Yesterday I was having my nails done and trying to find a "nearly clear" color because my surgery is on Tuesday. I tend to just start conversations with ladies who are similar in size to me so I mentioned that I was considering a french manicure because of surgery (they need to see your nail color during/after surgery). Once I noticed that she was interested in talking, I went ahead and told her that I was having gastric bypass surgery and she nearly jumped out of her seat to come closer and talk to me about everything. So many women think about WLS and are desperate to talk to people face to face about it. We talked for 15 minutes while our nails dried and she even asked me for my number to follow up with me after my surgery. Needless to say, at some point, if our relationship grows, I will share with her about my new church and invite her. Getting a french manicure sure is vain...but look what came of it!! I wish you the best on your journey. Your friend, Cynthia S.