Need some TLC

When I thought of all the message boards on this website, I thought this one might understand my feelings. I hate feeling sorry for myself and hate even more complaining. But I feel safe on this board. Today my loving 13 yr old nephew was showing me the bells and whistles on my new cell phone and took a video of me on the couch. I was mortified. I had no idea of what I look like. Right now I am 350 with a surgery date of 10/18/05. I know I need this surgery. I'm just so down right now. Last weekend I attended a Joyce Meyer Ministry conference and it was one of those 3 day long on the mountain top experiences...and all last week I was under serious spiritual attack. And this little 10 second video clip seals the deal. Satan get thee behind me...I say with a whimper. Any words of encouragement would be so appreciated. Thank you...

Cynthia, You stay strong my sister. This is spiritual warfare and you know your best weapon for this kind of attack is prayer. Take your fears and worries to Christ. Get ugly with him! Tell our Lord exactly how you feel. Cry! Scream! Yell! if you feel like it. Jesus will understand. He can handle it. Then leave all your cares right there girlfriend! His yoke is easy and His burdons are light. Go and read your Word. Try Psalm 23...it always reminds me that my Lord will fight all of my battles for me. While you're at it, read any of the other Psalms also. They are wonderful words of peace and reassurance. You are going to be just fine as long as you trust in Christ. Have a God-blessed day on purpose! coG627 B.

Cynthia, Hi Hey, we are only one day apart on our surgeries!!!! Mine is October 17th at 8 am in Carmel, Indiana. Condemnation, guilt, shame, defeat.....all of these are the same old things that satan uses to make us want to feel like it's all hopeless! HE'S A LIAR!!!!! You and I and all those willing to go through this surgery, are about to experience a whole new outlook on life...freedom and victory...and self-control... He (satan) doesn't want us to go down this road to victory! He wants to kill us in our obesity, steal our joy and destroy our dreams of all we can and will do for our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ! Hang in there, and just like our sister above stated, remember this really is spiritual warfare, but remember we ALWAYS win in Him!!!! Be blessed in His Presence! God Bless! Cindy Snyder: Pre-op; RNY-10-17-05; 435 lbs.; BMI-74.7

It's been a couple weeks since your post. Are you feeling better dear one? Sally

Thank you for all your prayer and support. The depression has gone away and I am doing ok. I have been eating out of control, it seems that even with a surgery date, I still don't have the desire to take care of myself. My eating habits recently have only proven to me that I desperately need this surgery. Thanks again.