H.A.L.T

Good afternoon everyone, My name is Tammy and I'm VERY new here. I'm thankful for my Lord first of all. I'm thankful even more that there's a place to go for support on here for just about anything. I'm new on this journey and will have my first consulation July 28th. I'm not sure what to think about that. My husband is going with me. Right now I'm HALT=Hungry Angry Lonely & Tired. I guess that means I should HALT and take a look around at some things. My husband and 16 year old son are at a youth camp in Indiana and I really am lonely. I'm angry because I did not eat my way up to this weight. I'm angry because so many things are out of my control and this is who I've become. I cry and say I'm sorry to my husband for the way I've become. I'm very tired all the time no matter what I do. I just feel weak and tired. I'm hungry and don't care what I eat right now because it doesn't really matter at this point. I am a Christian and go to a church called New Life Bible Church. Yes, I have new life in Christ, amen! But I want a "new life" so I can live life to its fullest. Thanks for listening to my venting. I'll be around. I'm trying not to feel HALT but it just happens and I feel like I can't get out.

Hi Tammy-First--Stop beating yourself up. Thank the lord that someone/somehow you got the courage and desire to attend the info session for the surgery. That is how I felt. I had never asked for the Lord's help--after all--I was the one who did the overeating. But this time it has been different. He has shown me the way to this surgery (I had lap band) and every day I ask for help to stay in control and compliant. I have lost 86 pounds total pre and post. I do believe this is the difference. Tommorow-before you get out of bed Ask for the Lord's help and ask for his guidance on this new journey. I am sure he will help you. In Christ's love, Joan

Hi Tammy. You are in my prayers. Been there, done that. Your feelings are so normal. God does not want you feeling like this though. As a Christian with Christ living inside, we are to feel and have JOY! The joy of the Lord is your strength. God created you, in HIS image. NO! I don't mean the physical condition you are in at this point. He created you to be healthy, happy, and full of joy! God sends healing in many different ways and I KNOW that this surgery is one of the ways He brings healing. He has healed me by using this surgery. NO DOUBT ABOUT IT! When you feel like you are feeling right now, get your bible. Find scripture about how you feel. Look up anger and search it out. Lonley? God says that He will never leave you nor forsake you! He's there. Remember the footprints poem? Tired, He is your strength when you are weary! AGAIN! You are in my prayers. Please keep us posted on your journey for WLS! I'm excited for you. Randall

Hi Tammy. You are expressing what so many of us have felt also. It was only about a year ago that I made the choice for WLS. I had no idea that the Lord was going to use the surgery in such a great way to minister to my family and others. Remember to hold your head up high, give yourself a pat on the back for having courage, and know that the LORD is in control of all of this! ~Della