Prayers, please!

I have neglected this board because I felt lonely and didn't think it was right for me. My mistake. I've been posting on the singles board and kept on even though I was uncomfortable with some of them. I started corresponding with a gentleman who said all the right things and made me feel like I didn't know I could feel again. Praying about it and thinking about the cir****tances - he's still married (in the process of a divorce, living platonically, blah, blah, blah); will not marry without having sex with someone and I don't believe in pre-marital sex. At my age I'm thinking that's not the most important thing. I've lived without it since my divorce 26 years ago and will continue. I ended up telling him that it would not work because he had his priorities, I had mine and I would not compromise my moral values for anyone. I'm feeling very depressed right now and having panic attacks to beat the band. How sad is that since I never even met the man and we had been corresponding for a week. I'm pathetic. I would appreciate prayers and any words of encouragement. Please forgive me for deserting this board and accept me back in. Blessings, Patti

Hi Patti, I'm new to this board, but I can't imagine ANYONE not welcoming you back. How could a person know God, and respond that way?!! You must be feeling so many different emotions right now and they can be very confusing and contradictory. Go before the Lord and bring ALL of those emotions with you. Tell Him how you feel (even the "ugly" things). Just be truthful with Him and pour out your heart. God is our one TRUE provider!! He promises to meet ALL of our needs. Don't feel bad for having chosen to stand for what you believe. If this man cannot except that, then he is not the man God would have for you. My father just left my mom after 45 years of marriage, so you can imagine how alone she must feel. One of the things that I have said to her, is that even though fall comes and the grass dies and the leaves fall from the tree, spring ALWAYS comes again. God has a plan for your life. Trust in Him, no matter what things seem like to you right now. May the Lord bless you and keep you, and make his face to shine upon you all of the days of your life. Hugs, Dawn