Hi from Central Florida
Hello all~ 
I recently found this forum on the OH website. I am grateful that there are others here *****late to the spiritual *and* phyisical aspects of the processes & experiences, and to have others to pray with too. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
A little about me... Single mom, Age 31, Central Florida.
I've been a Christian since 1993 - though I have struggled in my faith (faithfulness) with God over the years. As a young Christian, I felt called towards working with international people (to teach English as a 2nd language). While taking my eyes off the Lord (and living 2 lives...) I became pregnant at age 23 and lived with many feelings of self-persecution, and feelings of being a terrible Christian.
I am fortunate that God does not love me based on my feelings, cir****tances, or actions. (This reminds me of a pop Christian song that says something about how He doesn't give us what we deserve, and that He gives what we don't deserve.)
Over the last 7 yrs, I have struggled with depression, and how I feel I would not ever be used by God (this just seems to be the train of thought i fell into repeatedly, I know these thoughts were not from God). I have also kept myself from returning to college to complete my bachelors mostly because I have let my body go over these last 7 yrs, and I feel that I will not be able to handle the looks from the younger (and/or thinner) people on campus, plus the physical strains of getting to/from classes on a large hilly campus without problems.
Very late in 2004, I was given a F/T position from my employer. The benefits of the new position offered hope that I would get all my medical concerns handled (including bariatric procedure, if possible). BCBS of FL decided that they would exclude bariatric services after Jan 1 2005 (a month after my insuance took effect). My hopes were that, after losing the weight, I would go on to do my BA, so could be used in the area that I have constantly felt called to.
After losing the opportunity for bariatric surgery, I have had a hard time feeling that God would help me ever be used by him - or that I would ever become the Christian I want to be (not that I cant be closer to Him right where I'm at)...
Please pray that that I will overcome the depression, will feel healthy enough to go back to school, will be diligent with the time & talents that God has given me (regardless if I go back to school), and to find contentment with whatever path God gives me from here on out. Most importantly - that all these issues will remain in HIS capable hands, and not in my weak (and often failing) hands.
Thank you - God Bless you all in your pursuits as well!
In Christ,
< Katie
sorry so long...
I recently found this forum on the OH website. I am grateful that there are others here *****late to the spiritual *and* phyisical aspects of the processes & experiences, and to have others to pray with too. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
A little about me... Single mom, Age 31, Central Florida.
I've been a Christian since 1993 - though I have struggled in my faith (faithfulness) with God over the years. As a young Christian, I felt called towards working with international people (to teach English as a 2nd language). While taking my eyes off the Lord (and living 2 lives...) I became pregnant at age 23 and lived with many feelings of self-persecution, and feelings of being a terrible Christian.
I am fortunate that God does not love me based on my feelings, cir****tances, or actions. (This reminds me of a pop Christian song that says something about how He doesn't give us what we deserve, and that He gives what we don't deserve.)
Over the last 7 yrs, I have struggled with depression, and how I feel I would not ever be used by God (this just seems to be the train of thought i fell into repeatedly, I know these thoughts were not from God). I have also kept myself from returning to college to complete my bachelors mostly because I have let my body go over these last 7 yrs, and I feel that I will not be able to handle the looks from the younger (and/or thinner) people on campus, plus the physical strains of getting to/from classes on a large hilly campus without problems.
Very late in 2004, I was given a F/T position from my employer. The benefits of the new position offered hope that I would get all my medical concerns handled (including bariatric procedure, if possible). BCBS of FL decided that they would exclude bariatric services after Jan 1 2005 (a month after my insuance took effect). My hopes were that, after losing the weight, I would go on to do my BA, so could be used in the area that I have constantly felt called to.
After losing the opportunity for bariatric surgery, I have had a hard time feeling that God would help me ever be used by him - or that I would ever become the Christian I want to be (not that I cant be closer to Him right where I'm at)...
Please pray that that I will overcome the depression, will feel healthy enough to go back to school, will be diligent with the time & talents that God has given me (regardless if I go back to school), and to find contentment with whatever path God gives me from here on out. Most importantly - that all these issues will remain in HIS capable hands, and not in my weak (and often failing) hands.
Thank you - God Bless you all in your pursuits as well!
In Christ,
< Katie
sorry so long... 
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