Every Dream Dead Within Days.....

Hey Angels!!!! So much has happened in the last few days that I don't where to begin...I have been engaged to be married for over 3 years to who I thought was the man of my dreams...the trouble is he has a severe mental illness(severe depression/anxiety-borderline schizophrenic disorder)! Even though he was ill, he has always been wonderful in every way there is to be. He was wonderful with my children, sincere, loving, funny, MY EVERYTHING. About 8 months ago I noticed that he had started to give up on himself and ever getting better-he quit his therapy and broke my heart! Finally 1 week ago i finally told him that either he gets help or I would have to end the relationship because it was becoming unhealthy for me and my children to be around such sadness and anger all the time. I gave him 1 week to make an appointment to get help-he refused-today I ended the realtionship and broke apart our family. 2 hours later (after driving him home to his family), I was called to my parents home as there was an emergency there. When I got to my parents home, I was told that my Father(my hero-my DADDY) was terminally ill with lung cancer of a type to be determined. We don't know yet the extent- if he has 2 months left or 2 years-we will know that next week. And to fini**** all off I learned less than 5 days ago that my dreams of WLS were gone(at least for awhile) because my insurance is denying the claim. I feel sometimes as if the slighest breeze is going to make me shatter into a million pieces. Last week I still had hopes and dreams....now nothing! I don't know where I am going to end up...but I do know that God has purpose in what is happening to me and my children right now! I know that whatever the Lord has in store for us is going to be good. He will not shut one door without opening another...I just hope that when again I am faced with choosing, I pick the right door! I don't honestly know what I would do without my family here at AMOS. You are all such a constant source of encouragement for me that I thank my Lord everyday for all of you! Please say a prayer for my family would ya?! Love From The Heart! Anna

Hi Anna, I'm very sorry to hear about your dad, I lost my father in March and it was devastating and very unexpected, cherish every moment you can with him and let him know how much you love him. I too am floundering about how to have the wls, I have applied for financing and am still waiting for one more place to give me their decision. I will pray for you, keep looking to God, He will see you through, one day at a time. Be Blessed! Wendy Troyer

Hi Anna, I'm happy to hear that through it all you are still trusting in God. Both of my parents have departed this life. My mother's passing was unexpected but my father was not. He had lung and liver cancer and a brain tumor. God blessed me and my children with the blessed honor to move in with my father to provide for his care during his final days. Can I tell you that it was the best 6 months I had ever had with my father. Just like Wendy said ... show him and let him know how much you love him. Make him feel as comfortable as possible and take the time to listen to everything he has to say. My father accepted Christ before he passed. I will remember you and your family in my prayers and anytime you want to talk or need support please feel free to contact me. Be encouraged. Georgeann

Anna, I am so sorry to hear of all the heartache you are going through. I am praying for you. I wish I had some words to comfort you, but I know when your heart is so heavy, nothing seems to help but the Lord. Bless you, Sherri

Hi Anna, Sorry to hear your bad news. I had a brother-in-law who past away 1 1/2 years ago from lung cancer. We did not know until it was to late. Let your father know how much you love him. God Bless You Anna, and your family. My prayers are with you!!! Brenda

My Dearest Anna - I am so sorry to hear of all that you are dealing with right now. I lost my father a year ago and it has been a challenge that was almost devistation - but the Lord has kept me. As the others have said - cherrish every moment you have with your dear father and let him know whenever possible how much he means to you. It will not be an easy road but the Lord will see you and your family through. There is no one else you can look to in times like these. As for your fiance, I applaud you for giving him an ulitmatum and sticking with it. I know that the Lord is going to bless you and your children - just hold on and hang in unitl his time comes. My thoughts and prayers will be with you - and don't forget - sometimes the Drs hand out a negative report but God says not so! He can still perform miracles! blessings - Barb

I hope you are feeling better about things and you have a wonderful Thanksgiving tomorrow! PS. I just found out yesterday my friend of many years has cancer. It's really a blow when you hear it for the first time.