A Little Prayer

Always seems like God is trying to make us stronger, make us see how his glory and power works in our everyday lives. We all have this concept of time and need, but our time and needs are not what God has planned. Let me try to make this all clearer. 1.) Am about to take the steps to end my 2nd marriage. She has an addiction and it was either I leave or I was going to be the one taken away. So God was looking over me when I needed a triple bypass and made me strong to deal with getting out of a bad marriage. 2.) After getting out, I lost my job. Was unemployed for almost a year. But God showed me a way and I found a new job. Was tested for sleep apnea and found out it was worse than everyone thought. My company put me on disability because I fall asleep while driving, but they have no disability insurance, so I got short term from the state, again God provided. The short term ran out in August, but the company has long term - but the insurance company has determined that the sleep apnea is a pre-existing condition, so no coverage. 3.) Am in the process of getting all my ducks in a row for the health insurance company (Cigna) trying for approval for WLS. But all of my cash is gone, I do not know if I will be able to pay the next month for coverage and I do not have the cash now to get my current meds refilled. 4.) I have a younger sister who is 100% disabled. Her IQ is somewhere around 80, she is 49 going on 79. Has trouble remembering if she took her meds, did she eat, when did she eat. She was asked to leave her room in a shared house because she needed more care than she could provide for herself. So she came to live with me, I share a house with 3 other people. Found her a placement in a medical foster home, but it is not going to workout. So she will be moving again, but I don't know where. Have a state agency helping me on this one. By the way I had to become her power of attorney, so all of the bills come to me. 5.) Had to move all of my sister's stuff out last week and store it in the basement. Got a sinus infection and cold. So I had to slow down this week. 6.) Have a great girlfriend who stands by me through all of this. She gives me hope and keeps me on some type of path. 7.) I know I have a God who has a plan. I just wish he would let me see the light at the end of the tunnel - I hope it is not a train coming at me. So just say a few words of prayer that I find a way to make a living again. Have the desire to hold my head up and not continue to beat myself up over things that I cannot control. God has given me many tools and a faith that tells me that I can move mountains, just want to turn on that power. Rick

I think I'll do a big prayer instead of a little one, if you don't mind? Sometimes dear one the tribulations seem to go on for sometime. As you recognize, God has a plan for you, so just trust and listen for him. Be still and know that he is GOD. Peace Brother, Sally