My update!

HELLO ALL; I just need to share what on my heart right now. I not complaining, I am excited about the surgery; I believe that God has been me a second chance to life live the way it's suppose to be. As you know with this surgery, you going to have hater and some who plain faker. The surgery has given me boost my self esteem to top gear, I have low self esteem that I hated myself, I was abusing myself and letting others mistreat me, cause I thought I needed them, and I thought they were my friend. What is a friend "A Friend is one who believes I you before you believe in yourself". This surgery was a life changing decision for me; even though I knew it was a high risk surgery, anything was better than living a life as a heavy people weighing 382 pound and climbing. When I was my heaviest, I felt like I was in this world sometimes by myself. I didn't allow people to get close to me, because I felt that they just wanted to use me. Today, I am happier than I ever was. I love me; I love me; I'm pretty, I'm gorgeous; I am beautiful; I am the DIVA of my house, I love going shopping for ME, I love me. I am voluptuous. I just love life now. Sometime, I feel sad, because people don't seem to be happy for me, I have not changed, just lost some weight. I have notice that people want to be around me now, but I have a wall up to keep people out, I don't know how to let it down. Thanks for listening to me, See you all on the losing side.

Hi Tb, thanks for sharing from your heart. That's why were here. I think it is wonderful that this surgery has helped you to love and respect yourself more. As for some people not being happy about you losing weight, it may not be about you at all. Some people just have a hard time when other people are getting healthy and happy around them. When ever I sensed someone not being happy for me, I just prayed for them. I knew they were struggling with deeper issues and I tried not to take it to heart. You'll be going through so many different emotions the first couple of years. Give it to Jesus and he will help you through all these different phases of your life. Love in Christ Geri

My sister, thank you for sharing with us. It is so wonderful that God restored your self esteem. I too understand how others receive us. I believe we should surround ourselves with those who celebrate us and not just tolerate us. The problems is that many people cannot celebrate you because they themselves are afraid. So many people stuggle in various areas of their lives and cannot stand to see the progress others make because their is no progress in their own lives. Sometime it is not you, but what you represent to them. If they see you as a success and or fighting failures in their own lives and have never made the real connection with the Lord, it is just too much for them to handle. I look forward to surgery so that I can be all that the Lord has called me to be. Be encouraged, Pastor di.