Prayer request, please, please...

Hi, please pray for me. I had my open RNY almost five months ago, and I'm hungry all the time now. I've only lost 60 pounds and I can't exercise now because I'm so tired and depressed all the time. I have insulin dependent diabetes and have been trying to maintain my blood sugars, and I have hypothyroidism but my TSH is apparently normal according to recent tests. I also have depression but am already on Paxil. You can look at my profile to see the other conditions I have that contribute to my fatigue and stress. I have to stick around in this world, I'm a single mother of a beautiful, sweet, very intelligent little girl who will be 3 in October. I have no support, just one bitter, non-Christian family member but no neighbors, friends, church, etc. so I have had to rely on Jesus to help me through so much. But I feel so completely hopeless at the thought of already having failed after taking such a big step to retrieve my health. I feel so guilty that I'm not providing my daughter with a better parent, for heaven's sake she's only got one who cares about her. I've been taking caffeine pills in the morning to keep me awake, otherwise I want to take a nap in the aftrernoon, thank God I work at home; but even when I don't nap in the afternoon I can't get to sleep at night, I'm so restless and worried. I just pace and my mind races. I've tried Unisom, Sominex, valerian root, and melatonin, to no avail. I've been getting about 4 hours of sleep a night for the last 2 weeks, and I feel like I'm about to snap. I don't know what to do. I just want to be healthy and rested. Continued failure is guaranteed unless the Lord Himself steps in, because I am out of ideas. Please, please pray for me. I didn't know until about 10 minutes ago that there was a Christianity forum in here. Thank God there is. My heart is broken over this. I'm tired of being hungry and tired. I have so much to live for. Please, I'm so desperate and depressed. I need His help and guidance, and some sort of answer. Please, if you can take any time at all to pray for me, even 3 seconds. I'm so far down I can't reach the bottom when I lift my hands. My precious daughter needs me. I've got to get my health back. Thank you for praying. I'm sorry for the sob story.

Jenny: I am praying for you. Pray and give God all your concerns and probems. Then start today as a new, fresh day -- the beginning. Find a church in your area. Visit the church of a friend. Look in the telephone book. Call a Christian radio station for suggestions. Do whatever is necessary, but find a Bible believing/church and go TODAY!! Start making friend in a small group setting -- like a Bible study -- in that church. You will be amazed at how easy it will be and how fast you will acquire a network of Christian support. Just be open, genuine, and pray for guidance. Talk with your dietician about the hunger. I am pre-op so I do not know what you are experiencing. You need help. You have to go out and get it -- through prayer, through Christian support, through medical support. Don't let today go by without doing whatever you can to get the help you need!!

Oh Jenny my heart goes out to you. I will definantly pray for you daily. I do want to let you know that I was very very tired from having the surgery. I worked alot with my docter and she helped me tremondously. If you want to e-mail me I could share some things that she had me to do. I too was always hungry Never could tell if it was head hunger or not. What helped me was to drink lots and lots of water, and have lots of protein. It will get better. Blessings Geri

Bless your heart. I will pray for you. Besides dealing with the surgery, you are all alone and dealing with a preschooler as well. You do NEED immediately to get into a good church with a small group of women to nurture and mentor you. Email me anytime you want to. Laurie

Jenny, My heart goes out to you and I have already said a prayer for you. Our Lord is faithful and I believe that He will help you through. I am pre-op and cannot tell you from my own experience, but I have read so many profiles on this site, and it seems that most people go through the feelings of hunger, but eventually that subsides for them. I ask the Lord to help you keep doing what your doctor suggests and that your hunger subsides. God Bless you and your daughter. Please find a church; it is amazing how much support a church family will provide. I wanted to share the following. I just posted it on my profile page, as it helps to remind me that I am never alone, even if I feel like I am, I'm not. I REFUSE I refuse to be discouraged, to be sad or to cry; I refuse to be downhearted, and here's the reason why. I have a God who's mighty, who's sovereign and supreme I have a God who loves me, and I am on his team. He is all-wise and powerful, knees bend at the sound of His name. Though everything is changeable, my God remains the same. God knows all that's happening, from beginning to the end His presence is my comfort, He is my dearest Friend. When sickness comes to weaken me, to bring my head down low, I call upon my mighty God, into His arms I go. When cir****tances threaten to rob me of my peace, He draws me close unto his breast, where all my strivings cease. When my heart melts within me, and weakness takes control, He gathers me in His arms, He soothes my heart and soul. The great "I AM" is with me, my life is in His hand, The "Son of the Lord" is my hope, it's in His strength I stand. Yes, I refuse to be defeated, my eyes are on my God, He is my all, my everything, His name I shall always laud.