Need More Prayer

Hi Everyone,
I could still use some prayer.  I am back on an antibiotic for another sinus infection.  I really need that surgery on the 4th.  

Also, I am in the middle of a switch of antidepressants, and I am struggling because the new one is not as effective as the old one.  I'm not sleeping well, and I am highly sensitive emotionally.

Finally, Mom was here last night.  We got into a heated discussion, and I realize that her memory is horrible.  She and I are both Bipolar.  So was my older brother.  She compares my childhood traumas to hers, and tells me mine was not as bad as hers.  She compares my mental illness to hers or my brothers, and tells me mine was not as bad as either.  Then, she realized something I have suspected for most of my adult life.  She told me I am like her mother, who was out of her mind, and Mom ran away to live with her father because of her Mom's abuse.  I suspected that she thought that, unconciously for a long time.  As she left, she called me "Mom."  I told her not to call me that, and she said she "No."  She has the attitude that she can treat people any way she likes, because she is the Mother, and is 85 years old.  Needless to say, I am hurt once again.

And she wonders why I have been in therapy for 22 years.

I appreciate your prayers.

Hugs,
Trish

Awwww sweetie family dynamics can be so painful and understanding the why doesn't make it any easier to get thru. I wish you could have had a more caring mom, every child should be loved and appreciated.
I'll be praying extra hard for you this week, it's hard enough when you feel like crap then have some one dump on you to boot. I pray you'll find comfort and healing in the Lord and that you will be all ready for your surgery and finally some relief! God bless!!!!

Just want you to remember you are not alone. I understand your health issues, and will keep you in my prayers.