Need Prayer

As most of you may know, I am a recovering alcoholic, and was in rehab in January of 2010 for my alcoholism, and abusing opiate painkillers.  Back in August of 2010, I began to experience my chronic back pain, which had been abated for a while by some minor procedures by my pain management doc.  I tried alternative pain meds, but they were unsuccessful in relieving the pain, so we tried me on Percocet.  The plan for to only be on it for a month, or two, till I could get a cortisone shot. 

Well, I was scheduled for that shot, when I threw a blood clot the week before.  I can't get the shots while on Coumadin, my new friend for life.  My hematologist did not want me to get any elective procedures until I had been stable on the Coumadin for six months.  So, the wonderful nurse practitioner at the pain specialist's office and I have met monthly to discuss my pain levels, and get a new script of Percocet, which I had not abused.

One month ago, I had the hammertoe surgery, which required an increase in the dose of Percocet to get relief.  Not much of an increase, but still.  Then, I scheduled the cortisone shot for one month after the surgery, because I want to get this overwith. 

A week ago, a crown came out of my teeth, post and screws and all.  It was the second crown to come out since being on Coumadin.  So, I scheduled my dentist visit for today, the same day as two cortisone shots, without anesthesia.  One of the shots was for my herniated discs, the other for the bursitis in my left hip.  They both hurt more than I remembered. 

Well, I went to the dentist, and he looked at the x-rays of my jaw where the crowns had been.  He said he had to pull both teeth, and since I was off the Coumadin, might as well pull them today. 

First, I insisted they give me the nitrous oxide.  My anxiety level was through the roof.  When I got home, I was terrified of how I was beginning to feel as the local wore off, so I took two of my Percocet, instead of one. 

I have to tell my therapist about it.  I don't intend to tell my AA sponsor about it at this time, because I am not, and have not, even had a thought of drinking.  Actually, the thought of alcohol repulses me.  It has not been on my mind ever during this time of treating the back pain with Percocet.  Back in January 2010, I was washing the Vicodin down with the alcohol.

Please pray for me at this time.  I am upset with the situation I am in, and am going to begin working on some alternative pain practices, like visualization and meditation, which are supposed to help me.

Thanks for reading this long letter.

Hugs,
Trish

Hang on kiddo! Just remember take it slow and one day at a time. You are as always in my prayers! Hugs!!!!

Trish - God hears your call for strength to make it through!  Remember..."I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!"  God is faithful and He hears the plea of His children.

(((hugs)))