Greetings

Good Morning Friends,
I am posting again to say I have been AWOL.  I have been working a lot of hours and suffering a lot of physical pain from a variety of syndromes.  I have arthritis just about everywhere.  I also have degenerative disk disease in my spine.  Now, they are going to check me for fibromyalgia, but I can't see the rheumatologist till Christmas, because he is so booked.  Please pray this doctor gets a cancellation, and I can see him sooner.  I am in agony.  

I am also struggling with some self-destructive behaviors that do not involve chemicals.  A lot of painful emotions have been surfacing and I am not handling them well at all.  Honestly, I do not want to give them up at this point, because it is so much easier to just keep doing them than to try to stop.  I know God can give me strength, but I do not want to give them up yet.

Sorry I have not been around.  Working two jobs, watching my Phillies till late at night, and trying to keep up with grades is just killing me.

Hugs,
Trish
 

Hi always good to hear from you. Glad you are still working at your issues even if you aren't ready to give up some things yet. You know you can do it with God's help but you're right He won't help if you aren't willing to give them to Him. I have fibro and it's certainly not fun, it's so difficult to find pain relief for any length of time. Wishing you all the best and keep us up on your struggles. God bless!

Trish, I so can sympathize and empathize with you. I am so dealing with being attacked by the enemy in every way possible these days. I have had to immerse myself in His word and have learned that if I can let go and Let God and Let God rule and not only leave it at His feet but nail it to the cross I can overcome anything with God. Exodus 15:14-18 states:
" ^14-18 When people heard, they were scared;
      Philistines writhed and trembled;
   Yes, even the head men in Edom were shaken,
      and the big bosses in Moab.
   Everybody in Canaan
      panicked and fell faint.
   Dread and terror
      sent them reeling.
   Before your brandished right arm
      they were struck dumb like a stone,
   Until your people crossed over and entered, O God,
      until the people you made crossed over and entered.
   You brought them and planted them
      on the mountain of your heritage,
   The place where you live,
      the place you made,
   Your sanctuary, Master,
      that you established with your own hands.
   Let God rule
      forever, for eternity!  The Message (MSG)
This is my prayer for you today. Let God rule. With God all things are possible and look how far you have come.
May God bless you and keep you
In Christ
Karyn

Trish During my morning devotions/bible study God called me to read Lamentations 3 He hand picked these verses for you:

Lamentations 3: 19-24
"

It's a Good Thing to Hope for Help from God

 ^19-21I'll never forget the trouble, the utter lostness,
   the taste of ashes, the poison I've swallowed.
I remember it all—oh, how well I remember—
   the feeling of hitting the bottom.
But there's one other thing I remember,
   and remembering, I keep a grip on hope:

 ^22-24God's loyal love couldn't have run out,
   his merciful love couldn't have dried up.
They're created new every morning.
   How great your faithfulness!
I'm sticking with God (I say it over and over).
   He's all I've got left.  The messge

This was such a comfort to me this morning and I pray that it is for you also. Remember Isaiah 61:3
" and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
       to bestow on them a crown of beauty
       instead of ashes,
       the oil of gladness
       instead of mourning,
       and a garment of praise
       instead of a spirit of despair.
       They will be called oaks of righteousness,
       a planting of the LORD
       for the display of his splendor. NIV
These verse have gotten me through some really tough times. God's mercies are new every morning and His grace and love will sustain you. Keep God in your thought closet front and center.
In Christ
Karyn