Devotion #29

Hi, Everyone.
Today's devotion, from my personal journal dated May 7, 2007, has footprints from my feet of clay all over it. I was tempted to write a new devotion, so I could skip this one, but I knew that God wanted me to be honest before you. Here it is...the good, the bad, and the ugly.

     I'm NOT having a good day. I'm frustrated, in pain, and angry. I'm frustrated because I gained 2 lbs., and even though I told myself this morning that I wasn't going to let that discourage me, I've "grazed" all day. I'm in pain, because of the weather, I guess. I feel like I'm trying to move with broken bones. I'm angry because I believe I am healed yet the manifestation has not come, and I WANT TO KNOW WHY! What else do I need to do, Lord?! I am so tired of this pain!
     I've tried several times to get quiet before the Lord, so He can speak to me, but I just can't seem to "get there." I was reading through Proverbs, here and there, and found Proverbs 24:16, "A righteous man falls seven times, and rises again, but the wicked stumble in time of calamity." I guess I'm "wicked," because I sure feel like I've stumbled, not just fallen.
Later:  I've realized that the Lord wanted me to focus on the first part of Proverbs 24:16, "A righteous man falls seven times, and rises again," and the Lord reminded me that I had agreed to leave the timing and results up to Him. I know that I will "fall," but I don't have to stay down. I have decided to rest in Him, not in MY ability to strive and lose weight, with gritted teeth. I have decided to walk with Him, and, when I fall, allow Him to pick me up.
Update: On June 17, 2007, God did another work of healing in my body (my healing has been progressive), and I have experienced much relief from pain. I no longer feel the weather. Praise God!

Today, think about how you react to difficult life cir****tances. What happens, when you stumble and fall? Ask the Lord to help you react differently, especially in the area of emotional eating, to make better choices and to look to Him to raise you up. Enjoy Selah singing "You Raise Me Up." http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=62675b9066169a 93091c

Blessings,
Mary

Thank you Marylaw!!  This is just what I need, in all areas of my life.  By the way, my husband is now joining me in reading your daily devotions.  We love them, sometimes it seems as though God is answering me through you.  I know that God works in mysterious (sorry about the spelling)  ways.  If it wasn't for me being so bothered by "Fast Fingers", I would never have wrote you, and got to know you.  So, maybe it was God who made me get so upset by her threads, so he could help me with some of my troubles.  I don't know, but I really can "relate "  to your devotions.  Thanks again Cindy

Hi, Cindy.
I'm honored that you AND your husband are reading these devotions. I do love how God speaks through them, at "just the right moment." I certainly have nothing to do with that, but it thrills my soul, anyway. Sometimes, when I think of God, I just have to say, "Oh, what a Planner! Oh, what a Plan!"
Blessings to Both of You,
Mary

P.S. No need to apologize for spelling. It's me, remember. Plus, you spelled it right, anyway. :)