Coming back to the fold...

Good morning everyone on the Christian message board. I 've been AWOL for over a year...and I have really felt recently that I need to be "hooked" in to more communication and support from the OH family and WLS surgery issues in general. I have been maintaining a 110 pound weight loss since my Oct 2005 surgery but arrogance I suppose has kept me from utilizing the tools we've been given to lose that last 50 lbs I need to lose. I started to plateau after close to 2 years at 250 lbs. I felt great compared to 365 lbs and it seemed like my body just really found its stabilized place at 250. But while I am extremely grateful for the weight loss and feel 100% better physically, I know that carrying the extra weight is still a burden on my body. And honestly, I simply want to wear a size 14/16 for my body type. I am 5'7" and have always been "big boned" so even 16 is very ideal for my bone structure. So here I am, grateful to God for bringing me to this point in my life. I was suffering terribly with low self esteem, depression, shame, and self loathing before the surgery. Since 2005 I have been blessed with finding a wonderful church home, new friends, a social life, and ultimately a wonderful Christian husband. At 38, I have been blessed. Now I need to focus my time and energy on physical and spiritual renewal. Blessings to all who walk this path of WLS knowing that God holds our hand every step of the way. Cindy

Great to hear from you, Cindy! Welcome back. I'm grateful that our paths have crossed. It amazes me how God does that. Congratulations on all you've accomplished. I'm sure you'll be able to get those last pounds off. We need you, so keep coming back. Blessings, Mary

Welcome home! I think sometimes we just have to give our minds and bodies a break from all the change and let them catch up. Sounds like you are in a great place to restart your journey and we're all here for you. God bless!

Hi Cindy, I understand what you are saying about settling for a weight vs. reaching goal weight. I had my surgery exactly two years ago, and lost 100 pounds, and then regained about 20 of that, never achieving goal weight. I went back to old habits and have not really gotten into the exercise routine I need to be in. Now, as I approach my 2 year appointment with my surgeon, I realize I have not accomplished what I set out to do 2 years ago, and I feel guilty and ashamed. I am hoping to renew my resolve and get back on track and get to goal by my birthday in November. I have about 50 to go. Hopefully, we can encourage each other along the journey. Hugs, Trish

Fantastic! I felt so great when I read your email. I look forward to encouraging each other along the way. Accountability is a key motivator for me. And I know that this board in particular is such a safe place. Cindy