Its been a while 6 month update help

Hey all, I have finally gotten a chance to get on here. Things have been really difficult for quite some time now. I lost my job right after I went back to work after my surgery and my husband was fired a month ago because he has been so sick. We are living on 1400.00 a month with 5 of us and I we have no medical insurance. I believe with all my heart that when things get this tough there is something increadible on the other side. I am down a total of 92lbs, but I must admit I am struggling with eating still. If I try to eat any kind of meat what so ever I throw up, it looks like I may end up a vegetarian. Is that okay to do with my new stomach. I can eat any kind of beans, yogurt, coffee, water, low fat cheese, peppers, lima bean, green beans, salad, whole grain crackers, chili, beans only. So I guess what I am asking is am I going to be okay. Along with that, my depression has been at an all time high, I am not excersising at all, I feel angry a lot, espeically because my husband and family continue to eat crap I cannot have right in front of me and before surgery I used food to fix myself. I have no where to go with my feelings other than to deal with them so I am angry or crying a lot. I am still alone w/o women friends for the most part. I keep trying to get myself on a roll of getting back into church where my friends are, but it is so hard. Lastly, one blessed thing, my mother gave me a trip out to Modesto, Ca, (where I grew up till 8 years ago) to visit my friends, one of which has had an RNY in the last year and a half. So I have a question for you, I am staying with my friend who had the surgery, however, how do I bring up that I cannot eat a lot of what others can. Should I just buy my own food, or be honest and let her know. I don't know which would be more rude or hurt her. Anyway, I am going to get a picture of me up and updated in two weeks. I promise. I have really missed you all I need a lot of support and help so feel free to jump in and give me input. Love Trish

Hey kiddo sorry to hear things have been so rough! The Bible says God will pay you back twofold with blessings for all the hardships you go thru so you should be due a whole truck load. I would certainly encourage you to get back to your church family and ask for their prayer, there is strength in numbers. As far as visiting with your friend, I would just let her know you have problems with meat, but offer to buy other food for your self. If I were your friend I would say no way, I'll but what you can eat, but that's me. Who knows maybe she has the same problems, I think it's not uncommon for RNYers to have issues with meat. Seems like I've read that before on the boards (I was going to get RNY at one point).Anyway I'll add you to my prayer list and pray that God will reveal to you what He is trying to show you with all the difficulties. And shame on your family for being so selfish and not taking your feelings into consideration, you deserve better than that after all your work and scarifices to get this surgery. Wishing you a better new year and many blessings.