I am scared

I know the Word says to "fear not for I am with you even till the end of the age," and one of my favorite verses is "God has not given us a Spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind." I'm still scared though. I have surgery Friday at 11:30 and on this mother's day I can't help but wonder if I will be here for my 4 year old next mothers day. None of us knows the answer to this, but this life-saving surgery that I am having is also potentially life taking. I am having the DS because I have a 75 BMI and my surgeon says it is my best chance at losing the weight. I want the DS, but it does have the highest mortality rate of all of the surgeries. .However in Chicago, where I am having the surgery, they have only had 4 since 2001. I havent been scared at all until now, and I was a day away from my first date before it was changed. I know that this is God's will for me. I have prayed and sought his face for months over the surgery issue. I know He has plans for me still and that that should give me courage. Can you please pray for me that I will lean on Jesus and that God will give me the strength to face this. Hugs to all-sorry for being depressing today...

Amazing Love - How could it be - that you my King would die for me? Amazing Love - I know it's true - and its my joy to honor you. Amazing Love. That is the love of the Lord. Lean not on your understanding, but on the Lord. Give it all to him and let His grace be suffiecient. Why do we worry about tomorrow? Let the knowledge that Jesus in the Alpha and the Omega. Give your child to Him. Sleep in peace - knowing that the Lord will not forsake you ever. Amazing Love - How can this be? That you my King would die for me? Amazing Love - I know its true and its my joy to honor you. Amazing Love.

I love that song. I know it is true. I know He will care for me now and forever. Thank you for telling me just what I needed to hear-the TRUTH of the love of our Saviour and how FAITHFUL he is to us. Love ya-Amy

Remember our wonderful Lord takes care of the birds in the sky and the lillies of the field and how much more He loves us. May He be with you and wrap His loving safe arms around you all thru this new adventure you are about to start. Will keep you in prayer. Karen

Karen You are right. Our father loves us and HE can hold me up even if no one else can. I used to envision him rocking me to sleep every night a few years ago. I think I will think about that tonight as I go to bed. YOu guys got me weeping, but they are tears of joy of knowing my daddy loves me.Love ya-Amy

Time to meditate on Psalm 139. The Lord knows the number of your days. When it is time, it is time. We don't have control over it, HE does. Back in October, the Lord saw fit to take my 40 year old brother home, unexpectedly, and suddenly. Psalm 139 has comforted me through that. Trusting Him is what gave me peace when I had my surgery and when my brother died suddenly. Trust HIM to do what is best for Amy. Whatever HE decides will be the best thing that could happen to you and your family in HIS plan, for HIS purposes. Hugs, Trish

You know Trish- I owe you big time because I read Psalms 139 almost every day and definitely anytime I am feeling down or uncertain. I know there are a lot of uplifting Psalms, but I never realized how uplifing 139 was until you told me one time. You are, of course, right. I do trust HIM and I live or die for HIM. It says in 2 Corinthians 5 is one of the places Paul talks about how it is better to be absent from the body because to be away from the body is to be with God. Then of course He goes on to say that it is up to God how long he will live in this body. I wonder if you know how much wisdom you speak into my life?? God has given you a gift for speaking life to people. Thank you so much. Hugs-Amy

"When my anxious thoughts multiply within me, Thy consolations delight my soul." Psalm 94.19 When we live "near to the heart of God" we find a place of perfect peace. This evening Lord, I pray for Amy. I pray that she would be sensitive to Your nearness and choose to live courageously. luvitsunnyv

Why did you have to go and make me cry. I feel God so close to me and have for the past few days. You are so beautiful inside and out. Thank you-Amy