Still praying
Oh, Lord, I'm trying not to worry. I'm trying to be anxious over nothing. But I want this surgery so much. I truly believe it will change my life for the better. I don't want to run ahead of You, though, Lord. I don't want something that You don't want for me. But, please, God, if it is within Your will, let my insurance company approve my request to have the surgery. I know that my case is sitting on someone's desk right now for review. Please, God, go ahead of it and prepare the heart of the person who will be reviewing it. May he or she see me as a person in need rather than just a case number. Soften that person's heart to make the decision that will allow me to have the surgery and live more fully for You -- only You. Please, God, make it happen. But only if I'll truly be safe, if You will keep my motives pure, and if it is Your desire. Help me to remember that You will always do what is best for me. And help me to praise you and give you glory no matter what happens. In Jesus' name I ask it.
Amen