Revelation Moment

I went to my Celebrate Recovery meeting last night. It's a Christ-centered 12-step program which I am in for food addiction. It was on the way home, while digesting everything that was said, that I had a revelation. I wanted to write it down so I don't forget it. I am insane. The way I eat is pure craziness. I stuff myself. I have no control over food. Surgery is not the Answer. Jesus Christ is the Answer. So, does that mean surgery is not for me? But I believe God brought me to the surgery. But He could instantly take away this craziness. He could take away my appetite, my gluttony, my cravings, and even my fat, in the blink of an eye. Why won't He do that? Why surgery, of all things? There can only be one reason. So that I fully rely on Him. Before surgery I will need to lift up every appointment, every test, every application, every single detail. Pleading my case, as it were. Seeking Him while seeking relief. During surgery I will need to trust Him for my safety, for the doctor's skill, for the procedure to go as planned. I will have to rely on Him to see that my family is cared for. After surgery I will have to depend on Him for comfort, strength and protection as I never have before. The purpose of the surgery is to bring me Victory in Jesus Christ. The purpose of the surgery is draw me closer to my God and King who loves me so much that He is giving me this opportunity to have new life, even though He has already given me so much, and has promised me eternal life with Him forever. Surgery isn't the Answer. Jesus Christ is the Answer. May I never forget that.

Jill - JESUS IS THE ANSWER and He provided the surgery for me as an answer to prayer. They are both answers, in my book. But the surgery and the life I've been given will never take my Lord's place on the throne! Praise God for your revelation! - Carolyn

I could have spoke those words but you spoke them so much more eloquently than I would have. I find that I am oddly not worried about any of it. I mean I get a bit worried at times but the Amy I thought I knew would be in full obsession mode with all the what ifs. I just know that God lead me here. He will lead me through it all and it will somehow allow me to bring glory to His name. God is so good to us!! Jesus is indeed the answer!!

I also attend a Celebrate Recovery program at my church. At first I thought I was a food addict, but I don't believe that anymore. I believe that I simply put food before all else. For me the surgery was a way that I could gain control again, after harming myself so badly and I give thanks and glory to Jesus for this. For me it was the same as the verse where "if your right hand offends you - cut it off" - well for me I was so offended by my actions I decided to "cut it off". My group is a wonderful support group and they all know that I had the surgery. I felt I needed to be completely honest with them. Every day I feel myself drawing closer to God and I hope when my life is done I can look back and say "thank you Jesus for all that you have given me through this time of personal growth - I love you Jesus". I am so happy you found a way to achieve and give glory to Jesus because you are so right - He is the Answer.