Last night reminded me why I must get this surgery...

We went out for a family night last night. Normal things dinner, a movie, walmart(ya gotta go to walmart), the grocery store. I love spending time with my family, but it was humiliating more than once. We went out of our town so I didn't know the ins and outs of the place. We went to eat first-that was Good- thank goodness they had a table. I always fear that the tables will be filled because I simply do not fit in a booth. Next we went to wal-mart. Walmart is usually safe because they have those motorized carts and I use them. This walmart only had wheelchairs and they were much too small. We shopped for just a few minutes because I was in tears before we were done. My back simply kills me after just a few minutes of standing and it was too much. Then we went to the grocery store where I was hopeful because they had 2 carts there. Neither was charged so we walked out Finally the movie, where the seat was too small for my too large bottom. my back was killing me by the end. I was so angry with myself. How did I let this happen, I thought. I even appologized to my husband for being such a fat loser. The reality is that I did not just eat myself into this body. Clinical depression, hypothyroidism and sleep apnea packed on lbs that I would otherwise not have. I am just so glad that this surgery is availible. I praise God that I have renewed hope today. I know it is no suprise to Him that I am here and that He already had the answer waiting for me. I live to glorify Him and I know this will be used in some way for His glory. I just have to trust and ask for help when I need it. It is an awsome thing to have a loving Father to wipe away these tears. Without Him I really do not know how I would get through this. Amy

Lord Jesus, I thank You for my sister Amy. I praise You for the work You are doing in her life. Lord, I ask that You would speed her process in this and that You would bless her surgery and make it happen soon. Lord, I thank You for the new life You've given me through this surgery. Lord, please help me to appreciate it and treasure it. Lord, please give Amy physical comfort - Lord, You came to know our suffering, so You know Amy's. Lord, please have mercy on us. Thank You Lord Jesus - for loving us and coming to save us, and for setting us free! Amen! Thanks Amy. What a good reminder. Thank you for your words!!! ~Carolyn

Dear Amy..... Wow do I completely relate with just about everything you experienced yesterday. But just remember there is light at the end of that tunnel! Praise God for WLS! I echo Carolyn's wonderful prayer. You are doing something about it! This is not a permanent problem. Soon you will be on the "losers bench" thankful for God's grace in your life (as I am sure you are anyway). When do you think you will have your surgery? Our prayers are with you, girl... as is our understanding! We've all been there. God bless you. Wendy

Sweet Amy...I relate to your experience too and I think all of us do...we all came from Morbid Obesity and are at different stages in our recovery. You will get there also...hang on to Jesus He is our strength and our shield. I echo my other Sisters posts and Calrolyn's prayer for you and please don't give up...it will heppen in His time and you will not even remember (not like now) these days of adversity...you will be too busy living in your new body. In His love, Joan m

I could have written that same post a year and a half ago. In my profile, I have an incident where I couldn't fit in a booth and many complaints about Wal-Mart. I got stuck in the middle of Wal-Mart SEVEN times because the charge on the wheelchair just went out right in the middle of the store and I would have to get my cell phone and CALL Wal-Mart and ask for a manager to get someone to come rescue me because I was unable to walk to the front of the store and there was never an employee around. One time I didn't get to shop at all because I sat on a bench for two hours waiting on someone to bring a wheelchair back so I could do my shopping. No one ever did, so I just had to leave. I could go on and on, but just wanted to let you know that here it is a year and a half later and even though I have lost weight slowly, compared to other people, I am down to size 16-18, compared to 28-30s. I'm 5'10" so even though I don't look as heavy as I am, I still need to lose 76 more lbs., but even if I never lose another thing it is so worth it and the wait was, or felt like, forever. All the fighting with the insurance company just about did me in, but it finally happened. It will happen for you too and it won't be long until you can walk in Wal-Mart and stay in there as long as you want and fitting in booths is so longer even as issue. You will just slide in them and feel just as comfy as can be, I never dreamed it would happen, but it has happened and I thank God every day for it. I do wish I hadn't had so many delays. If I could have had my surgery when I first started trying to get it, I would already be at my goal weight, but that apparently wasn't God's plan, so I had to wait a long, long time and fight a long, hard fight, but I finally was a winner, which meant I am now a loser! Hang in there, You're in my prayers, Love, Joni

Dear Father wipe away the tears of shame and pain from my sister Amy. Her joy is in you and you will lift her up. Give her the strength needed to do the battle that is coming. Guide the hands of all who are in charge of her care and make the answers come swiftly. Amen. In His Grip Always, Sally

You Sweet Thing, I relate so much to what you have shared. I guarantee you there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You will look back on this and just praise God for His wonderful, awesome love in providing you with the surgery. Keep looking to Jesus. He looks on you with love and compassion, and so do we. Hugs, Trish

Thank you all so much-I know I can come to you when I am hurting and you always know what to say and it is not just words because you all have been there. I watched an airline show a few days ago-a reality show thing and they would not refund this lady who was obese her money but they were insisting she buy another seat on their airline and she had no way to do so. I just wish thin people could know how much it hurts to be obese for a minute...physically and emotionally.