With the numbers you gave, it sounds like you need to lose around 80 pounds. I would focus on 10 at a time so it does not seem overwhelming. You may want to start tracking how many calories you eat on a typical day now (I like myfitnesspal). Start with making better choices. For example, if you eat fried food, perhaps try baking it. Think of ways to make things healthier. No fast food, no sodas or juice, only water. When you have cut out all the unnecessary things, then cut back on your portion sizes and eat fewer calories. I would not do anything drastic to begin with. That never worked for me.

Does your surgeon have a support group? If he does, go to those meetings. You can learn a lot that can help you get ready for surgery. I met so many wonderful people at support groups who are still close friends today (9 years later).

Weight loss surgery saved my life. Good luck and keep us posted!!

I'm trying to get back into weighing in every week. I do weigh myself every week but I don't check in here...

HW: 377

LW: 131

TW: 131

Goal: I've been saying it's to maintain under 145 but I think I'm going to adjust that back to 140 since I've been maintaining at between 128-132 for the last 4 months.

I'm a big fan of the "return with a compliment and change the subject." :)

When I was skyping with my mom over the weekend she asked me "so how much weight have you lost know? Some of my friends have asked me." And.. this is weird. I am 100% open about all of this and I don't mind if people who knew SMO-Gwen know how much weight I've lost, but it seems weird to me that people who DIDN'T know SMO-Gwen know how much weight I've lost. Not enough to tell my mom, "hey, I'd rather you not tell people this" but enough that it's weird.

And then, yesterday, I spent the afternoon with my longest/oldest friends. At one point we were talking about Renn Faire garb and I said that I'd be wearing cheapo "garb" from Amazon again this year and would invest in good stuff in 2018. And my friend said, "But surely you're not planning on getting smaller than you are now, right?" This was both flattering and strange to hear. It's really the first time that someone I actually care about has insinuated that I've lost enough weight and can stop now. I responded with "well, we'll see, I still have two more surgeries this year after all!" and then changed the subject.

Anyway.. numbers. For the first time that I can remember in my entire life, the left two digits on the scale are 14. w00t!

HW: 319
LW: 152
TW: 149

Next goal: 145 - normal BMI

Hi weekly weighers!

well, I figured I'd bounce around this weight for a while, and I was right. Would have been nice to get comfortably under 200, but whatcha going to do?

i had two people not recognize me, which is weird. The first was on Friday, and the guy is an artist, and I was just like, oh flakey artitist person, doesn't remember we met a few times..... but them my friend was like, it's Erin. And I saw the light bulb go on in his head hahahah.

I went to a reunion Saturday on my husband's side. A lot of people I didn't know, but a few I know quite well. Im fine with getting a certain amount of attention these days, it's still very new for people. But it's also a little weird. But I know it's temporary. I just return with a compliment and change the subject. A few of the older folks were a bit more effusive but hahha they're just excited, a lot of "where's the rest of you" and "you're half the woman you were"

stats:

HW: 378

LW:299.6

TW: 299.6

have a good week!

i messaged you on Insta! :)