Hopefully the results are good. Sorry to hear you're dealing with this.

HW: 319
LW: 150.7
TW: 153.4

Next goal - 145, BMI normal!

I goofed last week - I totally blame myself. I skipped taking Vyvanse twice and that was a VERY BAD IDEA.

Morning weekly weighers!

Sorry I didn't post yesterday. I was feeling sick. Still not feeling 100%, not sure what's happening. So I'm sticking with liquids for the most part. I'll try some solids again at dinner.

how was everyone's week? I'm back to my pre Christmas weight, and now at a new low-weight for me.

The comments from people telling me not to lose any more weight are pretty constant now... I know it's mostly because the way I look is so drastically different from their mental image of me. It takes a while for that to change. Im sure that a stranger on the street would not say that a 160 pound woman looks under weight.

stats:

HW: 378

LW: 164.3

TW:161.0 ( ive been here a couple of days. It's such a strangely precise weight hahah)

Goals: eternally trying to get under 160....

Welcome! It sounds like you're off to an amazing start. :)

I read the whole thread. It sounds like there are a whole bunch of mitigating factors at play. Are you planning on moving post surgery anyway? Because if so, you may want to consider, depending on which is your home province, moving pre-surgery. Some provinces really have better surgical programs and after care, shorter wait times, etc... and the after care does not follow you from province to province, so the onus will be on you to find a doctor who understands your specific needs, and make sure you get the follow up you need. Just a thought.

Welcome! I'm excited to follow your journey. :)

Hey, thanks for the welcome and for your response. :)

Thanks for the advice, too. I've literally already made every change on your first list: no junk food or simple carbs, I'm on my fitness pal, I don't drink with meals anymore, no alcohol, more water (and green tea), no pop, and actually no coffee, either. I'd meant to cut it out before, anyway, so - boom.

As for your other suggestions, thanks! I know it's only been a week, but I'm actually sort of surprised that I'm not finding it more difficult. I think I probably will more like three weeks in, but in the past when I've made other big decisions or changes (leaving a boyfriend, quitting smoking, etc), I've always gone cold turkey and been able to stick to it. I'm extremely stubborn and I'm not afraid of my willpower giving out on me. I think I always knew in my heart that I would find a rock bottom, a day when I would look at myself in the mirror and say, okay, this is the limit. I refuse to get any bigger than this. Having someone else (my doctor) suggest WLS brought that day on. Somehow, in my twisted perception of things, I always thought that WLS was only for those people who need cranes to get off the couch or something and that I was nowhere near that point. I mean, I walk about 5 km per day, swim for an hour 1-2x per week, play on occasional sports teams, etc. I had no idea that people with BMIs under 40 ever got this sort of surgery. Then again, I also had no idea that I weighed as much as I did, so - I'm ruefully coming to terms with the notion that my self-perception was off, much as I hate to admit it. But I'm here now, and doing the thing, and committing to doing it more or less forever, so... there it is. I'm getting my head on straight now.

I have to do this on my own for the first six months. I can't afford a therapist and I live in a place that doesn't speak my language, and I just don't want to do this in a second language. If I can get down 4 more BMI points in the next six months, I'll be moving back to my home province and will hopefully then qualify for the surgery at a hospital there (they require your BMI to be between 40-55), and that whole deal comes with counselling and groups and information sessions, etc. I just have to get myself there, and with this community's support, I think I can do it! So thanks again for answering! :)