I find the "point whatever" part of my weigh-ins hilarious actually. On the one hand I'm thinking I'm almost 300 lbs does the fraction of a pound really matter but yes it does!! I'm not going to round down because I haven't earned it and I'm not going to round up cause damn it I worked hard for that fraction!! Lol. Oh boy, such a mind game. 

After my post yesterday I started writing out some goals for myself. So far it's just scale goals but I have a lot of non scale goals in my head that I have yet to commit to paper, maybe later today. After reading Gwen's post about her goals I realized that having them in my head is too wishy-washy, I need to see it in black and white.

So...at my first clinic weigh in I was 386 although I know I've been heavier than that in my life. My first goal was to reach 336 (50 lbs lost) and the next was to reach 309 (my first weigh in at a different clinic in 2009 after losing about 100 lbs on my own). I got to both of those before surgery, kinda lol, I was 309.8 the morning of surgery but it felt like a win. The next goal would be getting into the 200's and then 286 (100 lbs lost). After that I have a bit of a gap, I don't have another target until 236 (150 lbs lost) and then 220 which is the lowest I reached in 2009 after losing on my own for awhile and then following that up with a 3 month Optifast program. This is where I start to enter dreamland... under 200, followed by 193 (half of my starting weight), 186 (200 lbs lost) and then 175 (overweight not obese). I think having a bunch of closer together targets at those lower numbers will be helpful when things aren't happening as quickly as they will in the beginning. 

Congrats on your success so far. You'll see 290.0 any day now!!

Look how far you've come! I think it's normal for us to struggle with so much change, but I'm glad to hear you've reached your upper limit! Time for some back to basics!

I know it's different post op, but, when I first started tracking my intake pre op, I made a few interesting observations.

When my eating went off the rails, it was often because I wasn't eating enough at the right time. For example, I'd get home from work, eat too much for dinner, then pick at food all evening. Then I'd feel out of control, and over eat for days on end. Once I saw the pattern, I was able to make sure I actually ate a substantial breakfast, lunch etc, so I wasn't starving at supper, and could eat a normal size evening meal. 

The other one I realized, is I use food as avoidance and distraction. Once I realized that, I was able to work on channeling that nervous energy into something more productive. (This is ongoing, because food is a hobby for me, and I used to own a bakery, so I still have an interest in food, but I focus more on healthy stuff)

Im not suggesting that either of these are what you are dealing with, but that it is possible to break down what's happening, and find a way to curb it. One thing I've learned from this site, and the behaviorist at my clinic, is that it's as much about the why, as it is the what when it comes to our eating.

You got this! Your track record is proof!

Hello everyone. 

I've been following these posts for months and I've drawn so much inspiration from all of you. I think participating in the weekly weigh-ins will help keep me more accountable so here goes.

HW - 386    SW - 309.8

TW - 297.1

I need to set more goals for myself, both on and off the scale, but my next target would be reaching 100 lbs lost and it would be great to get there by the end of the year. Long term I don't have a specific goal weight. The lowest number I've seen in 20+ years is 220 so it's hard to wrap my brain around anything lower than that.  I seems like lots of people amend their goals along the way so for now I'll say that I'd love to see a number starting with a 1. 

Have a great week everyone! 

Oh I hate when it randomly drops like that - drives me crazy!

I feel like I'm in maintenance. Which I'm okay with after all this time but it's weird not seeing losses every week and I'm struggling with not feeling like a failure when I don't see a loss on the scale. In my head I know it's FINE and I love where I am but my heart lurches when the weight is the same you know? This whole thing is such a mind F!

HW: 377

LW: 146

TW: 146

Goal: is to make it through the holidays with +/- 1 pound from where I am now.

So close! You can do it!

I've finally made it under 350, so my next goal is 300. As it is, I'm going to need new clothes soon. The other day, I put my hand on my hip and found a new pocket in my scrubs. It was strange that I had been wearing these scrubs for a year and didn't know there was a hip pocket. Then I realized that I've lost so much weight that my drawstring scrub pants' back pocket is now on my hip!

HW: 408

LW: 349

TW: 341