Weekly Weigh-in 20/03/17-26/03/17

Morning weekly weighers!

i had a good and weird week. It started last Monday with a last minute interview, and ended Friday with an offer, and today is my first day! It's odd to be going into an environment where no one knows I've had wls and lost 130 pounds! I'm not sure what approach I want to take with it. I've been so open about surgery, I'm not keen to keep it a secret, but at the same time, I'm not comfortable sharing. Guess I'll see how I feel if and when it comes up. (Not that my weight will come up, but at some point people will notice my small servings, or that I don't eat most carbs or caffeine, or alcohol..) yes the new girl sure is tons of fun hahaha

Stats:

HW:378

LW: 250

TW: 246

looking forward to hearing how you're all doing!

I don't know your surgery date, since it's not in your signature or header but it's an interesting conundrum. It was one of the things that weirded me out when I started back to college because I'd lost about 90 pounds (if I recall correctly) at that point. And there isn't a lot of overlap of students/teachers in all of my classes, so for any given class I'm in, the other people don't know that I used to be SMO.

And, for me, that was very odd. I'd identified as "Gwen, SMO" for my entire life and now, suddenly, there are people who will never know that Gwen. But.. I still identify as "Gwen, SMO" in my brain. So I'm sure I make comments from time to time that cause people to side eye me because I still identify as SMO even though I'm "only" overweight now. I sometimes wonder what label people have for me now, because it's no longer "the SMO one." That's just weird.

But, my point.. I had one. I'm three years out now and totally open about my weight loss and surgery. However, "open" doesn't mean "I announce it to everyone." What it means is that sometimes it comes up naturally in conversation and I don't avoid it when it does. It's just a part of who I am, just like anything else. If it came up in conversation that I was reading the Mira Grant short story collection - I'd talk about that. And if it happened to come up in conversation that I've lost 160 pounds and the methods by which I've done this - I'd talk about that too. So, for me, I don't stress about it and I don't go out of my way to hide it while, at the same time, not going out of my way to announce it out of context. (I hope this makes sense.)

Today was a great weigh in day for me!! For the first time in ever the scale did not ask me who I was. Lance and I have been bouncing around the same weight for a while now and, finally, I'm far enough below him that the scale knew that I was me without confirmation. Of course.... he did eat pizza and Chinese over the weekend, and I AM at my lowest weight ever... but I'll take it!

HW: 319
LW: 171.4 (huge spike post-race, this was not a "valid" data point)
TW: 165.6

Next Goal: 159.5 - half the person I used to be/working to lose as much weight as I can prior to plastics

Huh. I hadn't realized my surgery wasn't posted . I'm just over 6 months out. Im still in active losing mode. I get what you're saying and is kinda how I've been approaching it. I'm just curious to see how I adapt.

It's funny you mention Gwen, SMO. Lately,

Instead of having smo brain, I've felt like queen of the world, I'm the woman who battled obesity, and is down 130lbs! Behold my awesomeness!

but then, just before my interview, I realized they don't know any of that! They just see a 250 pound woman. Still MO. Ugh brain. Pick a lane!

Ugh, yes, I hate that feeling. On the one hand, WOO! I feel like a rockstar because I've lost a lot of weight!! But, I still feel like I'm often the largest person in the room and that people are still judging me as fat. Especially the people who don't know how much weight I've lost. :/

Out brains totally kill us...it's like a roller coaster sometimes...

im with you, while I don't hide any of my surgeries I don't feel the need to announce it.

BTW I am very proud of myself... plugging away at my 5K app... trying to dodge the cold weather and get it in. I actually let a acquaintance I know who is a running machine and always tiny...know about it... she was very sweet and supportive. She thought Jeff Galloway was a great app and offered to go out on a run/walk with me. Because she runs and exercises so much even though she is tiny she eats like 3500 calories a day. Ugh. That blows my mind a little.

Totally with you on the ups and downs. One day I own the world and the next it's a struggle to find a single positive. It's an ongoing battle between what I've accomplished and how far I still have to go.

You were obviously in the 'queen of the world ' lane because you got the job.

Hehe thanks! True dat!

HW 368

LW 170.2

TW 170.8

Im struggling with my eating.

I'm sorry you're struggling.