Ive been on a crazy coaster, but it's over now!

I am so sorry ive been gone for so long! I miss my friends here. I wanted to come give you guys an update. 

I just recently completed a 5 weeks inpatient trauma recovery program (for PTSD) and it was very intensive therapy. It really changed my life in the best way possible. I had no idea what my underlying trauma was doing to me mentally and physically. I had been on this downward spiral - completely depressed and angry and self destructive. I went crashing into rock bottom, but it was perfect timing. 

The best part is that after fighting kaiser for a year on my back, i finally changed insurance, went through a few more "we cant help you", but then landed the absolute best team of doctors. Im finally getting the back surgery I need next week - yikes! Im excited and nervous as hell. 

I am a super bad ass fighter, and im in the process of losing my regain weight (50 lbs from 10/2012-12/2013. I will be reaching my goal, one year or another :)

(i posted a more detailed post in the VSG forum yesterday as well)

I'm so happy for you, Alison!! You are definitely a fighter. I'm glad you found the help you needed.

The back surgery will make you feel so much better. Happy healing!!

I'm glad to see you back posting and feeling so much better