I hit 199.5...now I have fear.

((hugs)) I feel the same way, except that I have deviated from my eating. I was very low carb for the first nine months, and the past few months I've started eating more carbs. It's a struggle to keep it under control, but I've still been able to lose. When I first added in a few more carbs I was terrified I'd wake up the next morning over 350 pounds again. It was irrationally, but almost crippling.  I have more modest goals for additional weight loss--I'll be happy at 180--so you may need to keep that laser focus for a while longer, but try not to let fear be the cause. Don't let the fear rule you. For me, it was destructive like the guilt used to be. I'm better able to rationally and reasonably relate to food when I focus on good choices and protein rather than fear. Good luck!

Hey zra,

I woke up on the day i hit 199.5 from a dream that id been eating some  kind of green cake with a fork and had almost finished it.  I pee'd n ran down to my scale lol. 199.5...apparently i hadnt eaten a whole cake!  I think part of the fear is that if i add the junk back in that i wont be able to unadd it.  I didnt have a fear of foods with my band but this journey is much different and I honestly want it to be my last as far as wls.  I just feel too good now.  Ive been thinking about a therapist who deals with this/wl pts.  I have to find one and its not an easy task.  I live in a major area, Cleveland, Ohio and im having a rough time finding one.  I may try to get a referral from my surgeons ofc or a couple of the ofcs we work with. 

I am keeping that 'laser focus' for a while...Im scared to death to be back to 350 again, feeling like crap and not to mention, got rid of all my larger clothes. 

Thank you again!

 

tia

Hi Everyone,

I put up a couple more pics of me in a dress, hair cut.  In that pic i was still in the low 200's on 12/24/13.

If you want to look, feel free.

 

tia

Hi Atia
Yes the possibility of regaining is more then inevitable if you do not stay on track. I am almost 7 yr. post op. And from my LW, I have regained 30lbs. ;-( But the good news is, even 7 yrs. later I can still lose if I make the efforts, like before. I am so happy about that! I am back on track, on mission to lose the regained wt, and additionally. I have lost almost 10lbs. already!! Your post caught my eye, because my 1st. goal is 199. My HW was at 354lbs. my docs goal was 190lbs. but I stalled at 222lbs. and here I am 7 yrs. later trying to lose 50lbs. to make it to oneder-land as they call it. I avoided weighing so I know this time around I will weigh myself routinely to keep myself in check. regain can indeed occur. Live your life, bu****ch your food, and stay active! My downfall was ****tails apple martinis , eating whatever, not exercising and not weighing in to keep on target. That's what I did wrong, but I have learned although it's 7 yrs. later, it's never to late to lose unwanted pounds! So Good luck to you! You can do it!
Hang in there-jbug