7 1/2 months
Well as of today, after 7 1/2 months of my journey I have lost 140lbs. It feels amazing and weird. I thought I would feel more different, but I also feel a lot different; lol like I said it's a weird feeling. Especially since about a week before I started I had pretty much decided to give up because I just could never conquer this. And then one day I woke up and I could. Divine Intervention? lol Anyways just wanted to share, thanks for reading :)
Well, I look different, but a lot of the times I have to look in the mirror to realize just how much I changed. It is true what they said, it's hard sometimes for your mind to connect to your body. Also, the whole diet/exercise part is easier for me now and a lot of the times it doesn't bother me that I still have months of it ahead of me, but my mind still wants to use food to cope with my emotions. I have a greater strength and it's not as hard for me to just power on through without giving into temptation, but it still bothers me that my mind is still thinking that way. I know that once I'm in maintainance I can indulge sometimes and also will be able to eat normally, so that keeps me going. And also I know that I have money, I have a car and at any time I can go to the store and buy junk, but I find that I feel more in control and powerful when I decide not to go and that's something that has changed, before I use to feel like the option of buying the junk controlled me and now I have the control. It can be soo hard sometimes, and a lot of people ask me how I do it. I've been soo depressed and deprived my whole life of happiness because of the insecurities that being obese comes with and I think I just got to the point where I was done and even though it's hard sometimes I will never give up :)
