Gotta get my BMI down quick
i just looked at your profile and saw those.... pictures. um, what kind of incompetent surgeon would leave your body open and gaping like that for .... 8 months?? 8 months? i know sometimes they leave wounds open or reasons, but not for almost a year.... how did you cope with that huge hole .... oh my God
Before this happened to me I didn't know people could live like this. It ain't fun. I have to double pad and tape if I leave the house, and I still have to worry about my wound leaking all over the place. I wake up covered in yellow goo from my wound leaking. I can't lift anything heavier than 10 pounds, even my grand babies. I stay exhausted because my body is using all my energy to try and close this wound.
You deal with what you must. I did a lot of crying at first, questioning why God wanted to keep me alive if all I was going to do was suffer. Then I made the decision to live and fight. I *AM* worth fighting for. For the first time in 49 years I love Myself. So out of all the negativity, something positive emerged and I am a stronger person because of it.
I looked at your pics, too, and it does look like your wound is getting better. Keep taking care of your nutrition so your body can keep healing as you prepare for surgery.
I'm 47 and it also took me to my 40's to learn to love myself. Hang in there!!
Hugs!
Laura in Texas
53 years old; 5'7" tall; HW: 339 (BMI=53); GW: 140 CW: 170 (BMI=27)
RNY: 09-17-08 Dr. Garth Davis
brachioplasty: 12-18-09 Dr. Wainwright; lbl/bl: 06-28-11 Dr. LoMonaco
"May your choices reflect your hopes and not your fears."
Two days ago I went back to the RNY pre-surgical diet of 2-3 protein shakes and some lean protein. I dropped a few pounds, so I will stick with this and see if I can get down to 280 in a few more weeks.
Distal RNY 6/11 SW 456 CW 311 Complications: Small bowel strangulation 12/23/2012, non healing surgical incision--ongoing. Still.