Scared

Today is my last day of the soon to be old me.Tomorrow I start my two week pre op liquid diet. Surgery 9/16. I read these forums day and night and most everyone says they would do it all again. Think its all setting in that tomorrow is it. I am scared and at same time so excited. My BMI is 56 . I look at before and after pictures of Vets and think well not one seems to have the pre VGS stomach that hangs like mine and yes I know im being vein but Im afraid after lsing even a little it wi hang to my knees and feel worse about myself then I do now. I have felt pretty in so many years not sure I ever will. My family and friends and co workers are.the best they are 100% supporting me and my journey is just begining. I am the largest person I know everywhere I and inside very depressed . I am soooo ready for this that almost cant stand it. Went to Vit. shop today and was excited to get all I needed and even got me a blender bottle . I was so excited and its its only a bottle lol. I worry about everthing like will I have leak, will I have the unbareable stinging feeling I Keep reading about. I know im being stupid its just all about to become real. I know im ready. Sorry for long post just thinking out loud really. Move over im coming to join you all my new friends ....ill be on that loser bench in few weeks. !!!!!!!

Tammy V, I'm so excited for you!  So much of what you said went for me as well and I'm sure many, many of us.  I even got a charge out of buying my Blender Bottles.  :)

Be prepared that the first three days are usually the worst in the preop diet.  After that point the body seems to be getting more used to the idea.  Just remember why you are doing the preop diet, and hang on tight!  This is when you reach down deep inside and find that fighter in you and put her to good use as you prep.

When I read your post I said to myself, ah, the best is yet to be for Tammy V! 

Thank you so much good to know im not alone !!! This site is truley the best . Ill keep you posted . Spending day with my daughters buying new food blender after Church cant wait. Lol

Oh, I totally get that.  :)  Enjoy! 

I agree completely about the people we find here.  I would say that 99% are kind, helpful, and will kick our butts when we need it.

the good news is that the liquid diet gets easier

 the bad news is that that hanging belly will probably hang lower when the fat melts away, depending on how old you are , how long you have been very over weight , genetics, how much sun you get determines how much  the skin goes back where it belongs

 

most of those after pictures of heavy weights are after plastic surgery,but you can wear spanks to hold everything in place and hide most of it

good luck with your surgery it was the best thing I ever did , well almost

I was afraid of that ... my gens suck my mom is very heavy, im 37 and have had two babies. Been heavy most adult life . I am 5ft 3 inches and pre op weight as of yesterday is 311.5 my highest recorded was in 2009 @ 343 .Hope i can find the spanks that will fit. Thank you for sll this support and feed back , it really means a lot. Just brought home my new fancy blender im excited .

Oh wow!! Hi Tammy. I am starting my pre op tomorrow too, surgery on the 16th. And i live in Alvarado. How crazy is that!!! I know just how you feel, choosing to have surgery is a scary thing. But i have 100% faith that i have made the best choice for myself and for my family. I am trying not to think to far into the future. Just trying to focus on the pre op diet and surgery and recovery. I am sure i will be in the market for spanks in the future though lol. I will deal with that when i get there. Good luck to you!!

Wearing clothes really helps when you go out in public.

I keeeeed, I keeeed. I have some skin issues, but I wear compression undergarments whenever dressing up. Looks far better that busting out of the seams.

The real reason I had the surgery was for my health and that is remarkably improved and looking better.

Good morning Tammy! Congrats on your upcoming surgery.

It's so normal to be scared. I didn't have any fear in regards to dying on the table, a leak, etc. because I trusted my surgeon... BUT, I was afraid of the unknown amount of pain I would be in afterwards. I got lucky and the pain really wasn't much, so I'm hoping that you have the same experience. Time really does fly after surgery... sometimes it seemed like yesterday that it was getting close to summer starting and I was having surgery. Here we are.... Labor Day and I've been sleeve for almost 4 months.

I would do this surgery over and over again if I had to. My quality of life has gotten so much better after losing 180 lbs... even though I still have 90-100 to go. It's so nice to know that I have reduced my chances of getting diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, sleep apnea, etc. It's also nice to fit into smaller clothing, not worry about fitting in a booth when I took my Dad out for a birthday dinner last night, and no longer worrying about people staring at you because you're SO large. Now... I have a long way to go, but I've come so far and I feel less self conscious. What an enormous mental weight that is lifted!

I'm sure you will do great! The pre-op liquid diet can be tough... but stay strong. You have a lot of support here from people that understand exactly what you're going through!!

I think its great that as i read these almost every sentence I say ong I feel that way too . It is so great to know that there are people that REALLY do know what you are feeling . Thank you for the response it means a lot . I wish you luck as well. Happy birthday to your Daddy '!