out of control

This past week all I did was eat. over the past few weeks I have been eating sunflower seeds in the hule thinking that it was ok 1. the salt intake is killing me 2. the hand to mouth has not got me grazing. Atleast I  have seen the light just hope I can walk toward it today has been awful so down on myself and HUNGERY for the only the 3rd time since surgery. Why do I do this to myself...ugh!!!

get rid of the sunflower seeds if you can't control yourself with them

 go back to measuring everything and eating on schedule  and tracking , , you can check with your nut maybe your not eating something your body needs sun flower seeds have lots of zinc in them maybe you need zinc,

 everyone goes thru set backs , you know what your doing so just correct it , drink alot of water to fill you up, maybe sugerfree gadderaid will help you 

Onward and upward. The seeds don't work for you now, so don't eat them anymore. We all falter from time to time, but it's important to acknowledge a mistake or a poor choice then let it go. Self flagellation serves no useful purpose. There are foods I do not keep in the house because I do not have good decision making skills with them. Sometimes too I find it handy to log out my food for an entire day, then follow what I have logged. That way I know what I am eating and when, and I don't have as much wiggle room.

Take care

Sounds like you have to give up the sunflower seeds. At almost 5 years out there are still some things I cannot keep in the house. Forgive yourself and move on.

Yup, I don't buy Sunflower Seeds. I have a problem with them. LOL. Hang in there.. you can do this!

I do buy ONE small bag of pumpkin seeds once per month. During my cycle (I don't have periods anymore, Thank you ablation!) but I always know because I want something salty and fidgety, so I just allow that into my plan :)

I hear you!! Struggling to not want crap that after I eat some I ask myself why? It tastes like crap most of the time, then I end up not finishing it, but search for something else! Since the weekend, I am tired and find myself just searching for crap!
Tired, unmotivated to work out, and no excuse. My foot is still healing, but I have the pool!!

I know my advice, I know what I need to do, I am just tired of weight... Weight... Weight... And having troubles finding the patience! 2 1/2 years out from surgery and still trying to make it to goal weight! Having not seen even ONEderland, I cannot stop doubting my ability to get there!

I want it, but just stuck! I don't seem to have the strong desire to push for loss rather just to maintain. I am tired of surgeries... But know I need them. Not sure though that I will ever like what I see naked. Pros and cons to the needed surgeries and then the cosmetic ones will not happen.

Yes, down on myself!!

I know I am not alone. It is so easy to give advice and yet so hard to always take and use the advice!


Hang in there your not alone!! I have to pull out my logs.... A lot more often!!
I think about what I need to do all the time.... Then the bad choice comes along....

Thanks everyone it has been like coming off crack the past 2 days without sunflower seeds its the hand to mouth. I cant believe i did that to myself all i want to do is eat now. but I will get a hold on it !!! I keep telling myself I only have to eat to live not like it!!!. lucky2 I know exactly what you mean but you are my inspiration i only hope to do as great as you . I am only 5 months out and doubt myself sooooo much I HATE THAT THE 1ST THING I GO TO IS FOOD WEATHER HAPPY OR SAD!  But i have always been fat I have always used food as a crutch its my joy , friend, comfort and always has been ,  wish i could over come this !!!!

Ok, so I am back here again today. I am awake at 4:30 am and decided that I needed to not lay in bed and so I am on here now. I pottied our dog and am not headed to the kitchen until 7am. I told my husband that I will be starting back at this full minded and aware of everything. That means, water, foods, vitamins, and exersise! I will start this losing streak again. I am not where I want to be. I have been trying to listen to others and not to myself. One doctor that told me to not lose for a year. Stay where I have been. Nurses and social workers that have said they do not see me losing any more weight and that I look great. Compared to where I have been, yes, I do look great (with clothes on). But is it where I want to be, NO!
I know that I have been doing a half ass job. I have had surgery on my foot and yes, I have been down in the exersise area. I feel that I can walk and have no excuse now as I am able to do the pool. Just laxed in that area. So yesterday I went on a long walk with our dog. I stopped by the gym to square that up.

Today is a new day and there is no end to my life time journey. Refocuss is great! I know I am not a failure and that I can rock this journey through out the rest of my life.

Thank you, I know that you will and can do this! You will succeed! You are aware of the thing that is hand to mouth and are ridding those sunflower seeds at least for the time being. I know that there are things that are easy to eat like that... those are the things I just cannot do right now. Thank you for eye opening that to me again. I know for me I need to eat my protien, as I can only eat my small portion of that and then that is it if I eat that first! I have bee lax in doing that and hence the crap is out now!

You are an inspiration to others now! Keep your high and know that you can and are doing this. Food is a fuel that is needed in our body. Put bad fuel in the body and it will show you exactly what it thinks of it! That is for sure!

I also need to not just drink tea. I need to drink the water. I have been retaining fluid and the swelling in my foot and leg that I had surgery in has not gone down since surgery. I know that drinking more water is a must. I know also that I have enjoyed Coke Zero alot to much. I had cut soda out of my liquid intake for nearly 2 years and so why the heck did I ever try to drink it again. It is like crack!! UGGG!

All of the good and great food are the ones that I love! I love the tastes of my real healthy cooking. I know the other thing that I will be doing is going back to my 1 cup containers and my smaller youth spoons. I know that the times that I am getting sick right away with the food not really going down, that I am in a rush to eat and not taking the me time needed to do my eating right!

Protien powder, this is what I need to do! I bought a protien powder at trader Joes and not my normal from Super Suppliments. I do not care for the taste of it but do not want to waste it. So I have not been using it like I always have. Hit and miss. I will suck it up and use it then buy the stuff that I know I love.
I may just get through till the end of the month and then next month put the money out for the protien powder that I know I like. Better yet, maybe I will let my mom know I would like help getting that for my birhtday next month!

ok, so I am not posting this in the forum under a new thread. I know that you understand what I am going through, as so many in the forum do.

It is hard, humiliating, frustrating, and down right discusting to know that I strayed off track. Not terriable as I have stayed aware of the numbers. Stayed aware of where I am maintaining. Flexuating in with in the 10 pound range.

Strangly enough even dropping another size. This is so much a life time journey, but that is not an excuse to not do what I so want to see and get to!

hugs and thank you for you eyes (ears).

You are not alone!

I know what you are saying the half ass part hits home so much for me.  I am still sunflower free. and working on my pork rinds have not stopped them all the way(pork rinds ) but I will and you have made me take notice of it ...not had any today ....but i have to face my night time grazing on pork rinds.  WE CAN DO THIS!!!.

I know exactly what you mean about embarrassing... My dad gave me the money for my WLS and he asked me sunday about my wt. lose and thank God i had not weighted yet cuz i would have died if i had to tell him i gained 4lbs last week! Iam not fully on track but I will be in the morning like you said I'm back to packing my lunch for work and portion control no more eating with my coworkers and there chips , pretzels, rice cakes they eat all day long and its like I have to grab one to fit in Im not hungry its just a habit.

thank you so much for sharing ....you and just a few others on here have faced what i have to. I wish you the best and know you are in my prayers!! .........its so funny I dont even know you ,  but I brag on you all the time I have shown my co workers your before and after pics. even a young girls that came to the clinic that noticed my wtl loss and was asking about WLS she is only 16 yrs. old and weights  414 at 5 feet even she was like WOW you touch more ppl than you will ever know YOU ROCK!!