Monday's weigh in

LOL  Yea, I usually weigh in the morning after I drink and I am way down! Since I was in a hotel and wasn't able to weigh in Saturday morning, I don't know what my weight was but it was still down on Sunday morning so I was happy!

If I made it a habit, at least I would be skinny in rehab!

Hahah yeah we could be ome two skinny alcoolics!!!!!! Why don't we start the really addicting drugs? We would be REALLY skinny. Lololol

Yes! Wonderland again! :) Love it! Great job!  Just keep trying with the mood thing.

Here is how I did.

LW 168.3

TW 164.2

4.1 pound loss

I should be happy right?  Still I was down to like about 161...here comes PMS.  I hate it! 

So awesome! So close to your goal. Keep going and you will get back there!!

Yeah onederland is amazing!

pMS sucks!!!! How is the stress going
On?

The stress is through the roof I have a child with a mood disorder. He is in the hospital getting his meds adjusted.  I wish I could help him.  It is very difficult because most ppl don't understand adults that have mental illness. So of course they don't understand it happening to children. I feel judged a lot...but I've done it all! Sticker charts....read books...did family therapy...tried supplements for him...tried diet like gluten free eft. Still in some way people always blame the parents or at least I feel that way!  I have a great deal of guilt from medicating my son. I pray no parent would ever have to face this. It's too much!

Yeah people do blame parents! The worse part is that parents blame parents. You'd think they understood better but no, they often see themselves as "better" than the ones they are judging.

But on a more positive note, a lot do not judge. I know I don't. Remember that sometimes people will be staring at you, and you'll think they are judging, but even though some will be, others will only wonder what they could do to help and feel powerless.

Sympathy looks vs judgemental looks are quite difficult to differentiate

The guilt towards our kids is non stop. I don't medicate mine and I find other ways to let the guilt crawl on me, all the time! I am never enough, or always too much, and I keep thinking I am screwing up their lifes. To be honest, we do our best and that is pretty much the only thing we can do. And you know what, the guilt is a proof that we are excellent parents. We care so much that we feel guilty all the time, we would like to be perfect, all because we love our babies to death, isn't this what being a good parent is all about?

Keep telling you: hummmm hummmmm hummmmm!!!!!

Karine!!!! Thank you!  I think that's exactly what I needed to hear today.  I'm realizing more and more I'm not in control.  It's them...they are in control of there lives and I could be perfect and things can still go wrong.  It's hard to accept that we can't control things for our kids.  You know those people that say I would never let my kid do that?  They have no clue!  lol and most of the time no kids!

Happy if I can help even if just a little!

Letting go is the hardest part, even harder when it letting go in regards to our kids! Control is an illusion!!! Might as well realuze it now!!!

Our job with our kids is to teach them all we know, then let them live their lifes, which starts the minute they are born in our world

LW: 296
TW: 293

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I'll take it :) I'm down 70 pounds from my highest of 363, which was my weight at my consult last October. So, I'm really excited about that, too.