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You aren't giving up and that's the most important thing.  All we can do is keep trying right?  I believe you can do it!

Hi Alison!

A break from the scale sounds good.  It can be so freaking frustrating and ruin your entire day.  That's fantastic about your running club, I hope you can meet some great people.  I used to enjoy jogging a lot and now I'm just starting back with trying to jog again.  It's tough but feels so good when I can actually run for more than a minute or two at a time.

I'm so thankful that I have people like you and others on this board who have gone through the whole weight loss journey and are an example to those of us starting out.  I know that this weight loss, honeymoon, whatever phase won't last forever.  I know when I can eat more and the newness of all this wears off, that is when the real struggles begin.  I am trying my friggin HARDEST to lay as much ground work as I can now to get things in order for that time.  But I'm also realistic... I know that I will probably struggle regardless.  But I just can't let myself give up.  Just like you; you keep coming back here and posting and blogging and you are not giving up.  You may be struggling but you are here and you know you aren't going to let yourself get back to that person you were at 400.  You are so different and have gone through too much to go back now. 

Thanks so much for all your inspiration... It's helped me and I'm sure others tremendously! 

Aww thanks. I guess I know that i'm just not a quitter so no matter how far I fall, I dont have the option to just lay at the bottom and cry about it.

It was interesting that in my last therapy session, I felt like it was just a bunch of BS chit chatting, but the one thing my therapist did was call me out when I said part of my problem is that I am forgetting what it felt like to be 420 lbs, and Ive lost the fire that got me going. So he made me sit there for a few minutes and really think about it and what it felt like to be 420 lbs and figure out reasons why I dont want to go back there.

One of the things helping me right now is being able to look back at my workout logs and see where I first "ran" my first whole mile in like 16 minutes...and to see all of the improvements Ive made since then. I know I am seriously out of shape right now and not where I want to be, but at least i know I'm not back where I started. Running gives me a high just for the fact that it used to be something i COULD NOT do and it's freeing just to do it...just to run. I dont love to run though just to run...lol.

HW: 335

LW: 208.4

TW: 206.2

GW: 150?

My birthday was on Saturday, and I didn't have cake. Instead I went for a gigantic hike from which I'm still waddling like a duck, and had a birthday dinner of grilled filet, roasted cauliflower, salad, etc.

Most of the time I'm not happy with where I am right now, but sometimes I'm able to not compare myself to others, but compare myself to what this would have been like a year ago. Sometimes :)

No cake!  Wow you are amazing!

That's committment right there! :-)  Congrats on the willpower and not comparing yourself to others.  I think at 200 pounds, I will be pretty darn happy with myself even if for other people 200 pounds is grossly overweight.  It's all about where you are and you are so much healthier and active now at this weight.  Keep up the awesome job!

You mean you haven't had a stall yet?! You lucky girl!  A stall is no weight loss at all...so nope not a stall.  I think you need to relax :) I tried a homiopathic remedy called Rescue.  It worked.  Maybe a placebo effect? I don't care! It worked.

Here is how I did this week

LW 173.2

TW 167.5

Loss of 5.7 pounds!  Well really 3 pounds because I'd gained two the previous week.  Here are the things I changed this week.

1. Every day I had a green lemon aid.

2. I decided I didn't care if I exercised or not and ended up going to the gym four times.  I didn't try to push myself to burn 400 calories...I just did what I felt like.

3. I tried not to stress over the little things.

We will see how next week goes. I'm really feeling amazing!  Also I'm not obese anymore...woo hoo...I'm overweight!!!

WOW!! What a great week you had!  Weight loss and you learned to relax and destress a bit.  That's great!  I find the same thing happens to me when I don't push myself to eat SUPER strict or go to the gym every single day for an hour.  If I tell myself that I can have a little something extra if I want it or that I can go to the gym and just walk for 30 minutes, I usually end up not reaching for the extra food or I tend to up my pace at the gym or do more since I am there anyway.

Isn't it funny how excited we get over things like just being overweight or weighing "only" 300 pounds?!? If people who never had a weight problem read this, they would be so confused. LOL

Have a great week!!

lol I know right!  They'd be like your overweight and happy?! Damn right!  I was super morbidly obese. 

Well the lower stress thing worked last week...hopefully it will keep working :)

Even before surgery I'd usually drop a pound or two right after my TOM without even trying. I bet you'll have a good loss next week!