NSV: Feeling more and more normal (x-post)

So, the weight loss itself is slow these days. I admit that I'm not 100% on plan right now. Honestly, it's tax season and I'm under a lot of stress. Just the fact that I've lost and not gained is a win for me.

BUT... I noticed today as I jumped in the van to go hunt down my kid to help him find his lost clarinet (which he swore he had on the way home but must have left somewhere on the sidewalk, we found it in his last class of the day) and I walked into his school... I had to kind of stop for a second in the hallway. Not because I was winded or anything. I felt normal. Like a normal mom walking into a middle school with her kid after hours to track something down. I wasn't worried about embarrassing him (which was something I felt with my own mom) and I wasn't worried about anyone looking at me with "that" look.

More and more, the every day situations is where the big changes are for me. I can sit on the ground with my knees drawn up and my arms around them. I can sit with my legs across my hubby's lap and talk. He can hug me and wrap his arms around me with no belly in the way.

I climbed up the kid's playscape to help him get some stuff out of there. I drug stuff around around the yard to put out for bulk item pick up.

Just these little every day things that most people don't even think about.

What blows my mind is that in 8 pounds or so I'll be a "normal" BMI. Just whoa.

THIS is why I had surgery. It's the every day living stuff that matters. The weight will keep moving slowly. I'm okay with that. But living... that's the cherry on my sundae.

 

Great post! Truly an inspiration for all. Continue to enjoy the fantastic journey!

Thanks for sharing!!!

Excellent post!  It really does feel so much different when you don't have to worry about the things that go along with being fat.  Before my surgery, you wouldn't catch me at a buffet because I just knew that everyone was looking at me thinking that there would be no food left after I was done.  I didn't want to ever sit outside at a restaurant because the chairs are usually smaller and have arms that I couldn't fit into.  I can't wait until I feel that sense of normalcy and not have to worry about "fat people problems".

I also worry about embarrassing my stepsons.  I drive my stepson to school everyday and wonder if he ever gets asked if I'm his mom (he is super skinny) and if anyone ever makes fun of me to him.  If so, hopefully I'll never know and next year when I take him to school, things will be different!

Keep up the great work and you'll get those 8 pounds off. Congrats!

You are my Hero!  I like that normal feeling...I know exactly what you mean.   It's strange because it's all I ever wanted...just to be normal. 

You should have made your profile name super woman!! ..I stalk you on here, I could not have RYN surgery due to a stomach abnormality so I really have questioned if I can loose the amt. of wt. I need to loose with this sleeve, so you and a few others I keep a close eye on what you guys are doing so I can learn. I'm so afraid that I'll stretch my sleeve or that I'm not loosing enough wt. but your post and replies always give me insight to my own battle. I'm so PROUD OF YOU!!!! Keep up the GREAT! work.

cindy

I love your posts :)  

I feel this way with my teenage nephew - he loves me to pieces but i was always afraid I was an embarassment to him, but now I dont have to feel like that.

I love yours too... you keep it real, girl... and that's what it's really about. ((HUGS))

And yay for you too!

Awesome moment for you!!! That is so wonderful!! I cannot wait to have moments like that myself!