Small victories
Today I woke up at 319lbs. I'm 3 pounds away from my halfway point of weight loss.
I notice that there are no longer bulges of fat hanging off the side of my knees.
There are no fat bulges hanging over my elbows.
I notice that I can reach all my body parts (yes I was getting to the point where wiping was becoming an issue).
I can put my socks on standing up.
I can tie my shoe laces sitting down with my legs crossed.
I've had for the past 5 years these horrible ugly discolorations on my feet and ankles. The doc said they were from being fat. I noticed this morning that they have faded significantly.
The corns on the side of my feet that have caused me such pain, are now just slightly rough patches and do not hurt.
I can walk up stairs without significant pain.
I can actually run (slowly) without falling down because my knees give out.
I can do the elliptical for 30 min without stopping.
There are now 6 inches between me and the steering wheel.
I can sit in my car seat and reach down to pick up something off the floor board.
I have a lap that my puppy can sit in.
I can sit in a normal office chair and not worry about it breaking.
Today, I weight less than my mom.
These are my victories. They are small but each one to me is a gold medal. These are my badges I will wear with pride and each time I earn a new badge I will sew it over the lost fat so even though my skin is saggy and I may look like a popped balloon, I will know that I can win this war and that the fat will not win without a fight.
08/20/12: -40 09/20/12: -21 10/20/12: -13 11/20/12: -5 12/20/12: -13 01/20/13: -10 02/20/13:-8 03/20/13: ?
I just want to say that I was reading your post and it sounds almost identical to the conversation I was having this morning with my husband. I actually have a pair of jeans on today which I haven't worn jeans since high school. I was saying how far I have come since surgery and all the little things that I couldn't do, I am able to do today. I can't tell you how happy I am for you because I was to the point that I was so close not being able to get out of bed to even walk down the hallway. Every day felt like I was dying. I feel like I have a shot at life again. Just enjoy every day and take advantage of all the things that you weren't able to do and all the things that you love to do. Way to go on your journey and I can so relate to your happiness with the weight loss. Keep up the good work.
Congratulations on ALL your success!!
I love reading posts like yours because they are so inspiring and also so relatable. People that have never been our size don't understand what it is like to not be able to go to concerts or travel or even sometimes out to eat because we can't fit into seats or airplanes. They don't realize how hard it is to do normal things they take for granted when our fat is in the way. And then to lose the weight and start to be able to feel "normal" again and not have to worry about those small things is an amazing feeling. To be able to buckle the seat belt in my husband's jeep or to be able to wear jeans is something that smaller people would never think about not being able to do... but we've been there and understand the frustration and disappointment and shame that comes with these small things.
I am so happy for you today and I know it will just get better and better. Thank god for this surgery!!!
KittyKarin :-) Starting weight: 362 / Surgery weight: 353 / Current weight: 190 (03/27/2017)
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