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I just wanna lay in bed and sleep and cry all day long. I made 3 weeks post op yesterday and I'm really starting to hate everything about me. I hate the fact that I hate my puréed diet, I just wanna chew something! I hate the fact that I should be losing more? Maybe it's just me. I have no idea what I'm supposed to be it by 3 weeks but I personally feel like I'm not losing enough and it makes me so sad that I can never measure up. I had a few complications last week so even though I was on my way to excercising everyday, I had to stop cause it was causing complications. I barely can get in enough protein however, anything else I feel like I'm not getting full anymore. I mean granted, I stop after 1/4 or 1/2 cup of soup or broth or whatever but I don't feel full anymore. I'm scared I did something wrong and I stretched out my stomach already. I'm ALWAYS cold. I can be in a sauna and have the chills. I feel so bad for my husband cause we can't sleep with the fan on or the window open and he's sweating while I have two pairs of socks on, mittens and 2 thick comforters with sweats oh and in Hawaii where it's only 70 degrees? Yeah. That's me. I wanna scream at my family. We are staying with my mom for awhile so she can help me while my husband goes to work but she hurts me more than anything! She brings home sweets and goodies and malasada's and pies and cakes and ugh! I can't even believe that this health freak is now converted to a junkie now that I'm finally doing something about my own health. Blah blah blah. I'm rambling now. Just dealing with so many emotions all at once. I just wanna leave work and wake up tomorrow. 

oh honey hang in there!

Lots of things ÈI would like to say to encourage you!

First of all, the pureed stage is almost over, it wont last forever, and than you'll be able to eat.  You see, for me, leaving the pureed stage was awfull, I was and am still scared to eat!  So try to enjoy the pureed stage!  lololol

Get the protein first, this is the key to feel full.  And how do you think you strectched your stomach?  It is normal to start eating a bit ore every week, you cannot stay at that stage forever, you'd die from malnutrition honey!

Not losing enough?  It is each our own speed.  There is a forum for people not losing fast, try to find it and go lurk a bit, I know I did and it made me realize that I lose fast compared to some!  Was liberating!

You're cold, he's hot?  You take off those socks and cuddle him, put your hands and feet on him until he gets cold and you get warm, then turn around for your back hahahaha!  It works here I can tell you!

Talk to your mom, she should understand that!  A good talk, not blaing her but telling her how it makes you feel!

Marine, thanks for your reply. I know I should be trying to enjoy every stage but I guess for me, my will power I starting to fade a bit. I really enjoyed being on full liquids because it was easy to tolerate and I could see the loss so it motivated me. But then when I stopped getting full, I just figured okay we have got to get some thickness into that. But then I still wasn't getting full. I guess I'm just paranoid. Stretching is just one of my biggest fears and my head is just playing games with me. :( 

Stupid auto correct. That's supposed to say Karine, not marine. 

Chin up. I promise it gets better.

I still get cold, but not freezing to death cold like I did right after surgery.

My husband lost his mind when I went back to work and was still on liquids. He decided to make homemade cinnamon rolls and called me at work to tell me about it. He trashed the kitchen and left me the mess to clean. I had raging head hunger and some real hunger too. I could have crowned him. I can laugh now, but I was pissed then. Food pushers just don't get it.

You just had your insides rearranged. You will have some trouble feeling full or otherwise for awhile. It will level out. Just give it some time.

You are losing enough. Most of us go through that too. Keep working your plan and you will lose weight.

take care.

I know I can't ask them to change their habits when I just started changing mine but it's just frustrating to see so much crap every time I go downstairs. Then they wonder why I hibernate in my room so much. It's torture. 

Oh, yes, I get it. It used to bug the bejesus out of me. Now I control the food and buy them limited crap, but I understand living with your family doesn't allow that option.

For the chewing thing, get some gum. Really it works. And don't worry about stretching your stomach with liquids. If you haven't read Frisco's post about the pyloric valve you should. It basically means that when you drink liquids they don't hang around in your stomach but go straight through.  It's the way we are designed and why we shouldn't drink with our meals later on down the road.   The swelling is starting to go down so drinking is easier. That's a good thing. Drink LOTS of fluids. Even broth has minimal calories so just keep sipping at this point. The more fluids you take in the better. When you move on to the soft stage you will start noticing restriction again. But stay on target and measure everything. If I don't measure I can eat like 4 cups of food now. But I feel satisfied on 1/2 cup dense protein and 1/2 cup veggies. MEASURE MEASURE MEASURE. You won't have to worry about stretching anything as long as you measure.

As for being cold, get a heating pad or heating blanket so your hubby can have his fan and you can stay toasty warm. I'd say it gets better but really I am always cold and I'm 6 months and change out from surgery.  Sad I know, I was always hot and now I'm always freezing. I wear my winter coat inside at the office and have on two pairs of pants (sweats under my jeans), and sometimes wear gloves. At home my heat is cranked up to 80* and some days I feel like crawling under the heat lamps my reptiles have. LOL  

My surgeon said absolutely no gum. :( he says that you suck in to much air when chewing gum so that's a no-no in his program. 

I'm definitely going to start measuring. So far I've only been eating pre-measured baby food and broths that come in small containers so I kinda know how much I'm getting but now that I'm getting into cans and stuff, I need to start a new routine. I have a heating pad but my husband likes to snuggle so the heating pad makes him too hot:( 

I've chewed gum with no problem since early on. It helps my tummy settle down after I eat.

Hang in there. It'll get better soon, I promise!!